Awareness brings freedom

Nov 15

Father, woke up fine at 4 am, feel rested. I think samyama before sleep is good. Will see.
Not sure why I was reluctant to do last Saturday.
Today suria was good. Mind was thinking of d korean drama show, the point when the hero knows that the heroin is a gal, so romantic, also his feeling for her for intense.
Then a tot arise about what the gal said about enjoying and making most of the present, since she doesn't have a future to look forward to. I spent 3 hours doing my articles and site and the next 2.5 hours watching d drama via web. Well, at least I found a good wifi cafe shop tat I can go to during weekend and even don't have to pay parking fee. Thanks.

Osho
Never repress anything. Repression is the greatest calamity that has happen to man.
A controlled mind, whenever it hears about freedom, immediately understands it as license. License is the opposite of control. Freedom is just in between, exactly in the middle, where there is no control and no license.

Freedom has its own discipline, but it is not enforced by any authority. It comes out of ur awareness, out of authenticity. Awareness brings freedom. In freedom, there is no need for control because there is no possibility for license. And in controlling, u miss the whole point of life which is celebration. How can u celebrate if u r too controlled?

Soul
Yea, tot of CEO's career and her house. She says she cannot let go of her house because she wants a good price so she can retire earlier. She says she cannot retire earlier becos she is waiting for a good price for the house. Her cut is to get good price is 3 years to her retirement. Its really chicken and egg. So, most likely she can only sell her house when she actually retire. And even then, she may not get the good price that she is waiting for 3 years. Meanwhile, she has not only be unhappy at work to earn money to maintain the house.

Mmm, how does that applies to me. I cannot let go of job cos I want to have security to pursue what I want. Did I delay in pursuing what I want. Yeap, but the ball is rolling. The site will be launched in January 2011. And then I can proceed.

Osho
When u r aware, u drop both control and license. One simply be himself - neither neurotic or erotic, available to all situations, ready to face whatever life brings, ready to accept and live - but always alert, conscious, aware, mindful.
So, the only thing to be constantly remembered is self-rememberance. You should not forget yourself. And always move from the innermost core of ur being. Let action flow from there, from ur very center of being, and whatever u do will be virtuous. Virtue is a function of awareness.

Soul
Tot of my insight yday, not only u must know ur Passion, u must also know ur pace.

Proof-reading - actually not that good as she try to impose her style. Anyway, next day will try out S, a member of our soul sisters group.

Osho
If u do something others like, society may praise u, but deep down u will go on condemning urself. Of what value is the praise of society? It is nothing but gossip. You have missed life for these foolish people who are all around for the sake of their good opinion.

Live life from ur very center. This is all that meditation is about. And by and by, u will come to feel a discipline that is not forced, not cultivated, which arises spontaneously, arises naturally like a flower blooms. Then u will have the whole of life available, and u will have ur whole being available. And when ur whole being and the whole life meet, between the two arises that which is freedom. Between the two arises that which is nirvana.

Soul
One thing about me is authenticity. I be myself even if I get judged, even if I feel hurt that I receive bad opinion.
What is unconscious, I don't know. But at least I know about following my passion and now following my own life's pace.