Guidance is always there for me (6)

Nov 8

Father, I have a good break and did samyama during weekend too. I like my family. This morning did my suria. First 3 cycle, I couldn't stretch out and tot I do asanas instead. But I preservere and did the whole 12 cycles and by 5th cycle I was stretching out.
Breathing meditation, can't even go in. Its now like pre-Tamil teacher. Or slightly better. Guess this comparison with samyama is not right.
Also for the first time, I didn't go for morning walk cos I felt bit unwell. Regretted it. In future, won't skip cos its not worth it, the saving of 1 hour of walking can effect my whole day.

On the website and blog. Last weekend I took a break. Father, why am I not feeling up. I have a great week despite feeling unwell. Why no energy for website? Well, guess, I just wanted a break from the spiritual aspect. Again, not sure of the takeout. Only good thing is I finally got samyama practices right.

Osho
Every intelligent human being has to face; we are rooted in the earth and we want wings to fly in the sky. We cannot be uprooted because the earth is our nourishment, our food. And yet we cannot stop dreaming of wings, because that is our spirit, that is our very soul, that is what makes us human.
Men is intrinsically discontented; hence, the feeling of shame - because he knows, " I can be free"

Soul
Guess this is the dilemma I am facing.

Osho
Your power, ur riches, ur prestige - all of ur cages. Your soul wants to be free, but freedom is dangerous, freedom has no insurance. Freedom has no security, no safety.
Freedom is walking on the edge of a razor - every moment in danger, fighting ur way. Every moment is a challenge from the unknown. Nobody is there to take care of u.
Freedom means tremendous responsibility; u r on ur own and alone.
Freedom is not a question of hope; it is a question of taking a risk.
Such are the schizophrenia of man, the split personality of man. His house is divided against itself; hence, he cannot find peace.

Soul
True.