Human is born as a potential

Nov 11

Father, yesterday I was exhausted. While driving, was feeling sleepy. Reach home, took a shower, getting ready for meditation, but couldn't do it. I just want to lie down and doze a bit. I slept and woke up 2 hours later. I then decide to sleep through the night. This is a first time, guess body is unwell due to cold. Anyway, at least I know m recovering as there is less phlegm.
This morning asanas, not so good. Breathing was delightful and shambavi fine too. Left wrist is swelling and right elbow in pain cos was on notebook whole day yday. Should learn to keep track of movement.

Yday GM reached out to me as she is feeling being attacked again. I told her its CEO's insecurities of letting go, coupled with no pep talk from her boss. I will ask CEO to back off and remember her role as a coach. And I would also says a Coach motivates and not threaten to get performance. If this is her reaction, its correct of GM never to lift herself up.
Father, part of me want out. Who knows, happy problem as both comes to me. As for A, he is part of the Senior Team, he thinks he is one of them and they definitely treat him that way. And I guess his stint as GM reinforces the mode. So, it is just me who doesn't treat him as Senior.

Osho
Freedom means understanding. One has understood the game of the world, and seeing that this is the way that the soul is prevented from growing, the way one is not allowed to be oneself, one simply go out of it with no scar on the soul.
One forgives, and forgets and remains without any clinging to the society in the name of love or in the name of hate. Society simply disappeared for the rebel. He may live in the world or he may go out of the world, but he belongs to it no more, he is an outsider.

Camel, Lion and Child
Man is not born perfect. He is born incomplete. He is born as a process. He is born on the way, as a pilgrim. Man is born as a potential.
That is his agony and his ecstasy - agony because he cannot rest, he has to go ahead, he has always to go ahead. He has to seek, search and explore, he has to become, because his being arises only through becoming. Becoming is his being. He can only be if he is on the move.

Evolution is intrinsic to man's nature, evolution is his very soul. And those who take themselves for granted remain unfulfilled; those who think they are born complete remain unevolved. Then the seed remains the seed, never becomes a tree and never know the joy of spring and the sunshine and the rain and the ecstasy of bursting into million of flowers.

Truth is realised through three states;
1. Assimilation / Camel
-storing up great knowledge of sages so that u stand at a higher peak; digestion of the past; u can use it, but it can't use u

2. Independence / Lion
- freedom from authority, from his past; discover his own inner light; aware of its primary obligation to his inmost hidden potential.
But he is still afraid somehow of the camel, fearful that it may come back.
Only when the fear of the camel is completely gone, the roaring of the lion stops. Then the song of the child is born.

3. Creativity / Child
- freedom to create


Soul
My resolution card for the week. I have got this car before, somehow didn't quite understand. And now here in full fledge.
Father, yeap, I am a lion, who is still afraid of the camel. Afraid of past fears. That's why cannot jump.