No self-worth projects into unworthiness of being loved

Nov 21

Father, suddenly tot of checking fly image, but found ebook design. Then further clicks, I found a comprehensive ebook design, advertisers and etc. They even does proof read. They are based in Australia. My market is overseas, that's good.

I needed some help in this. Searching for just firefly image and the tot of creating an ebook template is slowing me down. Even the website that V is doing is also so slow.

Suddenly tot that this is my Passion and I alone must do it. Earlier I have relied on C and so many months of delay, until I lost the momentum. And now with the website and ebook, also the same. Need to increase the momentum as only half year to go for this great period of mine. And also there is only one year before CEO's retirement, not sure if I can hold on to the 4-days week.

At first tot of the money I have to spend. Second tot is I am still working and I have more than enough money. I will do an investment. I will invest in my Passion. I and only I are responsible for materialising my Passion.

Even for proof-reading. I needed someone that is as passionate about my writing and can provide the enhancement.

Evening
I was reviewing the edited ebook to ensure contents are what I have written. As I was reading, I suddenly mentally replaced the word 'valuation' with 'worth'
I suddenly have an insight that my sense of valuation is my sense of worth.
I need to ensure constant good deliverable in order to feel worthy. I attached my worthiness to my doing.
A tot came in, I must have a low sense of worthiness.
Father, it is humbling. Somehow valuation is not as hurtful as worthiness. Cos valuation is higher than worthiness.
Father, if I relied on my constant high quality deliverable to ensure my sense of self-worth, it could mean I don't feel worthy at all.

Was going thru the ebook, further down an article that talked about my physical sympthons with interpretation from Louis Hays.
Nose stuffy - not recognising self worth

Father, despite my yoga and meditation, my nose is still stuffy every morning. While I have identified the symptom, I never associate myself with it cos I tot I have self-worth since I have a sense of ego.

Mmm, moving down
Fat arms - anger at being denied love.
Father, no wonder these 2 symptoms still persisted.
When I don't have self worth, I would not think m worthy of love. That's why I keep on thinking I deserved to be rejected.
Father, U r really great! Finally, the pix is out.