Freedom to is responsiblity (2)

Nov 22

Father, today I would tell CEO about her retirement date. It has been troubling me and my joints are aching.
But I did suria this morning and it was quite effortless. Breathing not great, but not bad either Shambavi not great.
But m glad of myself.
On the CEO, she may attacked me but I won't be caught in guilt. And besides she only asked me abt a month back. If she lay her new purchase of house/loan on me,

Osho
True freedom is not concerned with the outside world at all, it arises within u. It is freedom from all kinds of conditioning, religions, idealogies, political philosophies.
Meditation is nothing but the destruction of all these fetters and conditioning, the destruction of the whole person so that u can again be free under the sky and the stars, out in the open, available to existence.
The moment u r available to existence, existence is available to u. And the meeting of these two availabilities is ultimate bliss. But it can happen only in freedom. Freedom is the highest value, there is nothing higher.

Osho
When u r free, there is responsibilities. If there is no God, there is tremendous responsibilities. Infact absolute responsibilities because there is no way to unload the responsibility on anyone else.
If there is God, u can share responsibilities, u can throw ur responsibilities to Him; u can say "It is u who have made the world, it is U who have made me in this way, it is U who is finally, absolutely responsible, not me. I am just a creature and u r the creator.

With freedom comes responsibility. Freedom is responsibility. But the mind is cunning and interprets in its own way, it always listen to what I wants to listen to.
Freedom is possible only when u r so integrated that u can accept the responsibility of being free.
When I say to u that u r free, I mean that u r a god. Freedom is not license, it is a tremendous discipline.

Soul
Suddenly I tot of my upbringing. I used to judge my parents for not guiding me, for making me made decisions on my own and responsible for it.
Actually, its becos of that, I am conscious of my responsibility. I know I am self-protect. But I guess I took it too much, that I become responsible for people and events not within my control, resulting in guilt and helplessness.

Osho
On the outside life has to be a compromise. If u were alone on the earth, u would have been absolutely free, but u r not alone. Don't call it bondage. It is not dependence, it is inter-dependence. It is brotherhood, it is relatedness. Even the smallest grass is related to the greatest star.
Outer inter-dependence is a must, it is inevitable, nothing can be done about it. Accept it and accept it joyously and not in resignation.

Soul
I am fine with inter-dependence. Even my issue with authority is now gone. Its funny, I used to pray for CEO's early retirement. These last few months, we got on so well that I am fine with her. And here I found out her retirement only 1 year to go. I was even hoping she seek extension as Chairman. I would miss her, especially our lunches.

Osho
Inner freedom is possible. Watch ur body, watch ur tots processes. Watch and witness the whole process of ur tots. And slowly u will see u r neither anger nor greed, neither Hindu nor Mohammedan, nor Christian and etc. Slowly u become aware that u r not any tot. U r not ur mind at all. U r a pure witness. The experience of pure witnessing is the experience of total freedom, but it is an inward phenomenon.
And a person who is inwardly totally free has no hankering to be outwardly free. Such a person is capable of accepting nature as it is.
Remember on a person who is totally free can surrender.

Soul
Perhaps that's why I am tolerant of most things and hardly affected by environment.
I used to be affected by food and work. Both has reduced considerably.
I used to be affected by money, and now getting less affected.

Soul
Suddenly I see the beauty of the early retirement date for CEO. She wanted to get out, but cannot get out on her own. She has to be forced out. The Universe is kind to her and need her only to stay 1 year instead of 2 years.
Her house to be sold at whatever price she can. Besides, she has 1 year to go. As for her new purchase/loan, she can ask her Financial Planner to work it out.
So everything is fine. This is a turnaround my earlier despair. I guess I was projecting my worry to her instead.