Cosmic Reward - acceptance of ending (4)

Jun 23
Father, did my practice and it was fine. I had pleasurable tots of Z. Is it just physical between us? Don't think so cos both of us need to be comfortable mentally before we can be physical.

Yday night I went to bed laughing myself to sleep. Joy is always here.

I have recommended Isha Kriya to both D and MF. Hope they try it.


Jun 23 Eve
Father, the meeting went well. I think I did a good chairing to get things started. But looks like I need to take chair position for some time yet. Have to get it strengthen before I can 'semi retire' and just be sathsang guide.

I was focused during the meeting and forget about Z. Of cos, mind acted up bit but I ignored it. No need to worry about Z as he normally doesn't attend volunteer meet. Besides he probably being nice and wants to give me more time to forget about us.

This afternoon had a good chat with M and told her to get the Passion Test book. If it makes u happy, it can't go wrong.

I also shared with M about my insight that our lovability factor is dependent on how much we love ourselved and not how much others love us. Others can only us up to the level they love themselves and hence how others love us is not our lovability factor but their own. M agreed with me.

Father, the break up with Z is good for me. I now can set my own lovability by loving myself. I need not seek others. What a breakthrough.

On me being a speaker; M said the day I am comfortable to share my writing, that's the time I will become a speaker; as both is also about sharing. At the moment, I have not find the door yet so I cannot judge Z for not being able to do so.

The Power of Intention
Below are 4 ways of thinking that can prevent u from reaching for and connecting to the universal, creative Spirit of intention;
1. Thinking about what's missing in ur life. If u spend ur time thinking about what's missing, then that's what expands in ur life.
You should be thinking about what u absolutely intend to manifest and attract into ur life - with no doubts, no waffling, no explaining.

Soul
I tot of missing partner. I should be thinking I am having my perfect partner.

2. Thinking about the circumstances of ur life.
If u don't like some of the circumstances of ur life, by all means don't think about them. Shift ur attention from what u don't want to what u do want.

Soul
Instead of thinking Z is not good for me, I think I am having my perfect partner.

3. Thinking about what has always been
When ur inner speech focuses on the way things have always been, u act upon ur tots of what has always been and the universal all-creating force continues to deliver what has always been.
Shift ur tots from what always has been to what u intend to manifest.

Soul
Instead of thinking its difficult to find my partner, think my partner is already here.

4. Thinking about what "they" want for u.
If ur tots are on what others expect of u - eventhough u despise their expectations - u'll continue to act on and attract more of what they want and expect for u.