Fulfilling my destiny (4) - need faith/will power

Jul 9 Eve

Father, I called Z around 5 pm but there was no response. I msg him but also no response. Of course the mind is working overtime. But this time it doesn't take over as there is no expectation.

Besides, I have done my part and his non-response is no longer a reflection of my lovability. He once told me that once we are off, he would delete me. Of course, today his is Eight of Club - fixed.

And I already know that if Z was meant to be in my life, he will be back. If he is not, then so be it. For me, my Six of Diamond, settlement and I complete my Osho for the week
1. Breakthru in samyama
2. Breakthru in msg Z
3. Breakthru in calling Z
4. Breakthru in accepting the finale.

Suddenly I laughed when I tot of Z's non-response. So, him. I can just visualise it, he cuts me off, don't do anything with me.

(Jul 31 - my own drama in my mind. I was amazed when he told me that he is still waiting for us to resume our physical relationship.)

Self Reliance - RWE
Spiritual Laws
The whole course of things goes to teach us faith. We need only obey. There is guidance for each of us, and by lowly listening, we shall hear the right word.

Each man has his own vocation. The talent is the call. He inclines to do something which is easy to him, and good when it is done, but which no other man can do.
His ambition is exactly proportioned to his powers. Every man has this call of the power to do something unique, and no man has any other call. By doing his work, he makes the need felt which he can supply, and creates the taste by which he is enjoyed. By doing his own work, he unfolds himself.

Soul
My talent is as follow;
- self-expression
- insight
- receptivity to spiritual insight and energy
- application of tools
- empathy
- intuitive

Self Reliance
The Soul will not know either deformity or pain. All loss, all pain, is particular; the universe remains to the heart unhurt.
For it is only the finite that has wrought and suffered; the infinite lies stretched in smiling repose.

Soul
For the first time I can relate to it. I can take Z's no response. Amen.

Internal influence
Breakthrough
If u r now feeling that "enough is enough", allow urself to take the risk of shattering the old patterns and limitations that have kept ur energy from flowing. In doing so, u will be amazed at the vitality and empowerment this Breakthrough bring to ur life.

Soul
Amen.
Father, just now when I did the Wishing meditation; my wish as follows
1. 2 to 3 months - make peace with Z
2. 3 years - holding 2 jobs; one is my corporate job and second is my writing.
3. Lifetime - a famous author and speaker.

Yea, me getting myself right and not hope for my partner to do it for me. Knowing my Nodes help me to be focused on myself.

Self Reliance
No man can learn what he has no preparation for learning, however near to his eyes is the object. God screens us evermore from premature ideas. Our eyes are holden that we cannot see things that stare us in the face, until the hour arrives when the mind is ripened; then we behold them, and the time when we saw them not is like a dream.

Soul
Tot of the Nodes. I got back to them after separation with Z.

Self Reliance - Writings
The effect of any writing on the public mind is mathematically measurable by its depths of thought.
The way to speak and write that shall not go out of fashion is to speak and write sincerely.

Soul
Father, I wrote an article and I wasn't overly concerned on its length. Again, its the journey and not the distance.

Self Reliance
Life alone can impart life; and though we should burst, we can only be valued as we make ourselves valuable.

Soul
Tot of my anology; we can only be loves as we make ourselves lovable.