Cosmic Reward - acceptance of ending

Jun 21 Aft

The Power of Intention
The law of manifestation is like the law of flotation and u must contemplate it working for u instead of contemplating it not working.

What u r feeling is a function of how u r thinking, what u r contemplating and how ur inner speech is being formulated. Feelings are clues about ur destiny and potential and they r seeking the full expression of life through u.
Your task is to contemplate the energies of life, love, beauty and kindness.

1. Be creative
I consider meditating and practising Japa essential in the quest to realign urself with the power of intention.

2. Be kind
Cheerful kindness is a much higher energy than sadness or malevolence and it makes the manifestation of ur desire possible.
Its through giving that we receive. Its through acts of kindness directed toward others that our immune system are strengthened and even our serotonin levels increased!

3. Be love
Being in a state of love is absolutely necessary for u to reconnect to intention.
Love is cooperation rather than competition.

4. Be beauty
As u awaken to ur divine nature, you'll begin to appreciate beauty in everything u see, touch and experience.

5. Be ever-expansive
By being in an ever-expanding state and growing intellectually, emotionally.


Soul
I am in the right direction. I can now see beauty even in grass.


Jun 21 Eve
Was updating my blog on endings and reading INTP and ESTJ. I had a tot to call Z, as if I have recovered and ask him about why he have to hide me, to seek analogy of me hiding my writing.

Anyway, I didn't call. I think with regards to this, don't act on my tots. If my true intention is to find about the hiding, then I will call by 15 July, 1 month anniversary of our break up. Have to get through the attachment mode.


(Jul 22 - Finally called him on Jul 20 and we had a chat. The reason why he wanted to hide me is because our relationship is only a fling for him and he doesn't want people to look at him unkindly when we broke off.)

The Power of Intention
6. Be abundant
Intention is endlessly abundant. Repeat to urself u r unlimited because u emanated from the inexhaustible supply of intention. Emerson said "The ancestor to every action is a tot".

7. Be receptive
The universal mind is ready to respond to anyone who recognises their true relationship to it. It will reproduce whatever conception of itself u impress upon it.
Being receptive mean allowing ur "senior partner" to handle ur life for u. "I accept the guidance and assistance of the same force that created me, I let go of my ego and I trust in this wisdom to move at its own peaceful pace. I make no demands on it.
You practice meditation because it allows u to reconnect to ur Source. By being peaceful, quite and receptive, u pattern urself in the image of Go, u regain the power of ur Source.
Connect to the power that created u, know that u r that power, commune with that power intimately and meditate to allow that growth of awareness to take place.

Soul
No wonder I couldn't connect with the book a few years ago. Because it was prescribing meditation and law of attraction, something I only found recently.


Soul
Suddenly tot of Integration. Earlier my mind tot of me becoming friend with Z. But now I realised its the acceptance of ending with Z. No more internal conflict.
Its true we were great but its over. I now need emotional and committed rship which he cannot offer. I no longer take it as me being unlovable but as him lacking the confidence to take up our rship. And it also acts as a mirror to me not taking up my writing.
And my idea of marriage differs from him. I am not keen in having children per se but m willing to compromise to one child.

Like Sadhguru says, one person can opt to use the rship to grow but the other doesn't opt to and that's when the rship is over openly.

For the past 2 weeks was I don't want the rship to end but I cannot let it continue.

Now it I don't want a hidden rship and I cannot let it continue. The don't and can't is now slowly but surely joining space.

Hiding, no growth.