I am freed from my Z

Jul 2
Father, today swimming was fine. I could either focus on the water or focus on floating. Did have one or two panic attacks but I was fine. I had a joyful time in the pool.

Just did Isha Kriya initiation by Sadhguru. It was good. In the video, he said when we can do away with suffering once we detached ourselves from our mind and body.
And if there is no more suffering, we need not be fearful and can walk our life in full gear.

At first I tot of Z, and then I dismissed it as I wanted to walk all the way with him but he couldn't. Then I tot of my writing. Me hiding away from my writing, fear of failure, fear of being found lacking, fear of exposure. Aiyoh, no wonder cannot come out.

The Power of Intention
Stay on the active side of the infinite, where all of the energy for creation exists in everlasting supply. Night and day, dream of what u intend to do, intend to be, and those dreams will interpret ur intentions. Let no doubt into ur dreams and intentions.

Life Expansion
When u really know what you don't want; you really know what you do want - but you are far apart. So the more you turn and go with the flow (what you want but think you can't have), your contrast become less exaggerated.

The more you don't have it, the more you want it - the Stream goes faster n faster but you still paddling cos you not sure if you can have it.

Until you come into alignment - knowing u can have what you want, there is not enough action in the world that can manifest it in ur life.

Your work isn't convincing someone to give you what you want; your work is just to find relief from wherever you are. When you get good at finding relief, you begin to flow wit the Stream and those things that have been downstream waiting for you to queue up wit them will begin to connect wit you wit such extraordinary persistence that people who are watching you will wonder what in the world has happened to you.

They will speak of you who barely begin to speak what they want and it seems that Heaven and Earth begin moving toward the fulfillment of it. Your life become extraordinary.

Soul
Things are falling in place.

(Jul 29 - Father, I dreamt of my relationship. I dreamt of me doing my writing. I now know I deserved to be loved and cherished. When I tot of myself being cherished, I can feel joy in me.)