Feeling uncertain with money

Feb 6
So much medication that I m groggy. Couldn't get into the space during Sannidhi's Pooja.
Did one cycle of Linga's chant but partially chanting in silence. Just couldn't chant. Lie down in Devi posture and tears fell.
Later Shoonya was light too. Couldn't get into breathing meditation and was about to give up but suddenly went in. Sat for awhile. Have not taken RA pills for 2 days and left hand fingers are swelling. Got to take tonight.

Now that my younger brother and family has shifted, house is so quiet. So the right decision that mom and I shifting to condo.

Just received mail on bonus provision. My astrology said news of money coming in this month. I said nope cos bonus only known in mid year. Alas it may be right. Hope can get 4 months instead of 3 months. Will be timely for new condo renovation.

Destiny Saturn period.
Jack of Diamonds (financial success through salesmanship or creativity, initiation into higher values)
This card can represent a businessman or associate with whom u have obligations or problems. This can be a karmic rship, one that requires hard work and patience for success.
Creative projects to make money may seem a burden to you but this is necessary part of establishing urself and ur future success. U will have success now but u will need to work hard for it.

Be on the lookout for Diamonds suit especially those who are younger or may be approaching you from either a romantic or creative view point. These are likely to be burdensome.


Three of Clubs (creativity, expression of ideas or through writing)
Worry and fear of the future could be ur major concerns this year, especially in this period. This worry could relate to somehow to an illness of a family member or urself.
Take special care of ur health and diet.

U have a lot of creative energy and in order to stay in a positive frame of mind, u would be better off if u found some way to express this creativity in a positive way.
Though creative projects may be difficult, proceed.

Soul
So true. Now I think at the minimum will need one thousand on utilities and maintenance.
Telling myself not to be afraid of the future.