Saturn period...keep calm by focus on the gaps between the thoughts

Feb 16 eve
Just found out that  Z is coming to the event.

In the earlier week was bit disappointed he didn't come cos want to show off the new me. Then later when I accepted he didn't show I feel good that I be facing a new year without any melodrama. Last year it was Y. But found out late evening that he is coming. Didn't see his wife name and mind start to imagine unnecessarily.

I was watching television for a few hours. Didn't want to think about it. Bit worried cos Saturn in Jack of Diamonds, Z's Ruling card. Earlier tot it was due to loan arrangement but that has been signed off today. As for the sales agreement, they found the land title so things should even be faster and hence that leave him.

Destiny
Jack of Diamonds (financial success through salesmanship or creativity, initiation into higher values)
Three of Spades

This card can represent a businessman or associate with whom u have obligations or problems. This can be a karmic rship, one that requires hard work and patience for success.
Creative projects to make money may seem a burden to you but this is necessary part of establishing urself and ur future success. U will have success now but u will need to work hard for it.

Be on the lookout for Diamonds suit especially those who are younger or may be approaching you from either a romantic or creative view point. These are likely to be burdensome.

Soul
Anyway, maybe my Ruling will help me.


Saturn 28 Jan to 21 Mar
Ruling
King of Spades
Three of Spades

King of Spades (great success in work through taking responsibility, fulfilment of goals.
Though Saturn is typically the most difficult time of the year, the presence of the King of Spades in this position promises that u will be able to overcome any difficulties that may arise, especially those related to health or work. This powerful card also casts a favourable influence over ur entire year, giving u better chances in every area of ur life. For sure, ur health will be good this year, mostly from taking matters into ur own hand.

Be on the lookout for men of the Spades suits, especially those older or who may be in position of authority or responsibility. These are likely to prove troublesome or burdensome in some way during this period.

Yoga the science of living by Osho
Don't pay attention to the tots. Focus urself on the gap between the tots, not on the tots. Focus urself when the road is vacant and nobody is passing. Change ur gestalt.
Focus on the gaps and suddenly u will become aware that gaps are there and tots are disappearing and in that gaps the first glimpse of samadhi will be attained. And that taste is needed in order to go on. If u know this gap can become permanent, if this gap is my nature, then this bliss will be available as a continuum

Soul
Yes. On the gap.