Queen of Diamonds in Destiny - finally giving myself what I want.

Jan 25

Got the green light from the owner, so the purchase of condominum is on.
For the first time I focus in what I want to have instead of the price to pay.
Break my karma.
Moving from Ace to Queen, enjoying the finer pleasure in life.
Now I know why I was okay to play second fiddle to bosses who truly enjoy the finer pleasure of life. I hope they will give me instead of me giving myself.
I also was hoping that my romantic partner will offer me the luxury in life.
When I first went with Z, he gave me his name card being head of his company. Alas there is no employee only him. He has no money. But he is keen on luxury, but spending beyond his means, getting himself heavily committed financially.

Finally, I am no longer waiting for anyone to give me. The bucks stopped here and I give to myself.
I can give myself things that I wanted to savour and enjoy.
Alas, finally plan to get myself the coffee machine that I wanted.

A tot on Y, with her Destiny in Seven of Diamonds and Ruling in Five of Clubs. She always changed her mind. Her destiny is to be intensely focused in something that she valued and work on it. Her Ruling is a rolling stone that gathers no moss. Its because of her Fives in Ruling and hence she is flexible and her body is flexible too.

Today in the park, mom wants to take care of brother and asked me to delay the move to condo.
As I was walking, my mind start to be negative and start to feel defensive on brother. Remembering the time he asked money for me for the current house. His current penthouse that can't accommodate us going there and he now expects us to be there for him and etc.
Then suddenly, a tot came. Why focus on the imagined negative intent of others, why not focus on positive manifestation. With that, I focus on him getting his new job in his current hometown so mom need not worry about him and we can shift out.

Went for late breakfast with sister and I shared with her about mom's concern. Both sister and brother in law said it is time for mom to retire. She should not have to take care of all our meals. And as for brother, we should not worry, he can take care of himself. It be better if he shift to a place near his current office as daily petrol and toll costs is quite heavy.

So, all set to go. I am shifting to my new place in couple of months.
Giving myself the swimming pool and awesome view and coffee machine that I always wanted.