North Node in Cancer - difficulty in emotional expression

Jan 22
Yesterday slept after 11 pm and since I got 2 hours of yoga class today tot I skip hata and put alarm at 4.30 am instead. Body woke up on its own. I snooze bit but body awake so I checked the clock. Its, 3.56 am. Pondering whether to wake up. Then decided to do Anga for my health.
Also I know that if I slept back it be the mind time. Body is already rested.

North node in Cancer
These folks are actually extremely sensitive to emotion, both their own and the emotional reactions of others. Others perceive them as being insensitive, but infact they are too sensitive and don't know how to handle the feelings that arise in themselves and others. Until they developed a system that allows them to experience their "feeling" connections with other people with confidence and ease, their automatic response is to try and control either themselves or others because this eliminates the issue of how to deal with feelings. They try to organise their partners so they can control the rship, but this bypasses the element of caring. Ultimately they feel alienated.

Soul
That's used to be me in personal and romantic rships.
Nowadays I learn to express.

North node in cancer
Sometimes these natives indulge in emotional outbursts - getting angry, blowing up, becoming insulted - as an avoidance of feelings and a way of bringing the situation to an end.

Soul
I only does that in extreme case. Only time I remember was the break up with Z. Even then I m able to walk out with a last hug. But at that times I was feeling so much, wants to end the constant uncertainty. Me ending it well was me controlling myself.

North node in cancer
What they really want in their rships is to feel secure and know they are loved for who they are. Yet they make this almost impossible because they don't reveal themselves, how can others know them and love them?
The greatest challenge is to allow themselves to be vulnerable. Taking the risk of revealing their feelings establishes their emotional identity for themselves as well as for the other person.

Soul
That's the old me.