Facing my issue with money

Jan 16

Got this from Rebellesociety.
I wrote out a list of what I wanted in a relationship — how did I want to feel while in a relationship?
Acceptance, Confidence, Love, Nurture, Freedom, were a few words on my list. How could I be this person for myself ? What actions would compliment these words? I began to jot them down.
Nourish your relationship with the self.


Soul
Good to do a list.

This evening pooja I was distracted. Tots of the company losing big client and here I m planning to buy property for investment.
As usual I get all jittery whenever I do capital commitment. But this time I m keeping the fear at bay.

Did Linga Struthi and the lying down posture, no tears. Just silence.

This week I noticed changes in me in terms of expectation of others. With P, I already dropped her as close friend and I can see we were close due to volunteering. Not a real close friendship. This time I no longer seek her. When she didn't reply my message promptly I no longer ponder over it. When she revert I no longer get excited over it. Same with A too, eventhough he apologise I no longer feel the need cos there is no longer expectation. My role now is just to communicate what I need to express. As for their response I just wait for them. Its up to them their response.

Tomorrow there is volunteering event. I didn't plan to go for the event. And normally goes when people ask. This time I didn't want to go. This time no longer need to do volunteering just to be in the gang.
 Something happening to me. Alas doing thing because I want not because of fear of being left out.
The old me would have make sure I got another event to cover myself. Now I am just okay. Just being with my family, being with my shrine, by myself I am fine.

For the first time no fear of being left out.

Mmm, suddenly tot of my Osho tarot card.

Pluto
Eight of Diamonds
This year one of ur main goals will be that of creating more money in ur life. U are desiring to have the power to make some purchases that are important to u. To acquire this power, u will have to change ur behaviour and possibly ur attitudes about money.
This card indicates that u need a fixed and determined set of values. That is, u need to get perfectly clear about what u want and why u want it. Once u are clear about what u want, then u can devote urself to a single-minded pursuit of those financial goal. This kind of dedication always brings success, but since this is the Pluto card, it is likely that acquiring these qualities will be challenging will be challenging at times and cause u to make fundamental changes in the way u approach money, work and finances.
Ur result card will tell u more about this financial power u seek or will point to a person in ur life who is closely connected to it.

Affirmation
I create the financial prosperity to purchase the thing that I want and deserve. I focus all my values into one powerful stream of "wealth energy".