Body accepted the 4 hours sleep

Aug 2

Father, body woke up abt 3.20am feeling fresh. I was lazing around cos I tot it was 4.20 am. When the alarm didn't rang still, I finally checked the clock, it was 3.40 am and I got myself to sleep back.

Father, truly my body has got used to the system. Noticed my arm has reduced in size, less water retention.
Father, in 2009, I ate double, sleep double, I just let go of all controls. Taking afternoon nap without alarm clock, eating anything that I want without weighing myself, just letting it all out.
And now in 2010, my food intake normalise, my afternoon nap is less than 2 hours and my body finally agreed to 4 hours sleep a day. This happens after d major clearing of purging and vomit, after IE.

(Aug 27, alas body was for me the finale...my body is catching up alas. In no time, my body will be healed and my blood would no longer attack me)


Radical Forgiveness
As human being, we are blessed with the capability to feel emotion. Consequently, when we do not allow ourselves to experience the full range of emotions and instead suppress them, our souls create situations in which we are literally forced to feel them.
This means the whole point of creating an upset may simply lie in our soul's desire to provide an opportunity for us to feel a suppressed emotion. That being the case, simply allowing ourselves to have the feeling may allow the energy to move through us, and the so-called problem to disappear immediately. Feeling the emotion is just the first step in faking it until we make it, and it definitely cannot be bypassed.

It is in dismantling of the story that we find our opportunity to learn the real truth about ourselves and to remember who we really are. In tracing back the story and how it waa formed, we usually discover a core negative belief arose out of the experiences. Such beliefs are unconscious but they nevertheless remain active, and in order to reinforce themselves, need to create circumstances in the world "out there" that prove the belief correct.

These core beliefs usually form when we are very young. When something happens to us, we interpret the experience and give personal meaning to the situation. The story we made up based on the mixture of fact and fiction becomes our truth and an operating principle in our lives.

Father, am feeling bit apprehensive cos like have to prove myself, have to suffer, why now, just when I tot things begin to turn around.
Soul - that is so personal. Why I carry the burden? It is normal during pitch year to do a review. Besides its Aug instead of Sept (our critical time).it jus a job.

Amazingly, despite me being disturbed for past 2 days, I was still laughing myself to sleep. Amazing.
Guess, I was at ease.