The power to heal is in the feelings

Jul 29

Father, again woke up before alarm. Thanks for regulating my body. It has adapted to the 4 hours sleep. Though yday, I slept earlier at 11 pm.
I really like my asanas especially plough back and the leg lifting. I stayed quite long in the plough back position.
Surprisingly, I was laughing after hatha and then some laughter during breathing. Feel good. Father, whatever happen outside, inside I felt good and thank u for giving me the tool.

I still have not accepted it yet. And was having judgement and attacking tots on CEO. Then a tot came Fake it till u make it.
Give myself a break, this is really not easy cos its continuous. Somemore she is fighting for chairman position. So even the 1.5 years may not be the deadline. Then a tot came, if chairman she will come in 2 days a week only.
Besides, I have 4 days week that I savour.

(Aug 13 - confirmed with Regional boss, even if she stayed as Chairman, she won't be around in office)

Radical Forgiveness.
We must enter RF process with no expectation of when an energy shift might happen - eventhough we know that it can happen instantaneously
Exactly when the results begin to show up may depend on things we know little about.
It might take a while before we begin to really feel unconditional acceptance for the person involved and peace around the situation, which is how we know when forgiveness is complete.

Soul
Asking me to be patient.

Radical Forgivenes
Radical Forgiveness is a soul-to-soul interaction and requires only that we become connected at the soul level. When we feel this unconditional love for their soul, our soul joines theirs and become one.
Hence we do not have to like the person nor do we have to stay in their company if their personality and/or their behaviour is toxic to us.

(Aug 13 - surprisingly, our rship recovered last week and she is back to her normal loving self. Even more importantly, she is talking about her personal value, thinking she wants to have time for herself, opting out from heavy career)

Soul
This one I am not so sure. Its like an escape clause. For me is if inside is healed, manifest to outside.
Perhaps this is the base of Fake it till u make it.

A tot came. I must have such deep hidden pain that my valuation is triggered easily. The same for CEO. I affect myself and she affect others.
A tot came when I felt envious of the lip-hared gal who got a good husband. I wonder whether my low valuation is due to my hidden aspiration for my partner. But then partner is not the core.
Or could it be the childhood incident.
I don't know lah. Can't dig anymore.

Radical Forgiveness
RF requires no therapy. Not only does forgiving in the moment heal all the other times, the same or a similar thing happened - including the original situation - but u don't have to know what the original situation was.
That means you don't have to go digging up the past trying to figure out exactly what the original pain was. It is healed anyway, so what's the point?

When we are in the present, we cannot feel resentment because resentment only lives in the past. Neither can we feel fear, because fear only exists in relation to the future.

Soul
Mmm, the story abt the monk getting angry becos he waited for some guests to ring bell to let him know they arrived. But the guests came in without him knowing and he was enraged.
He has an "abandonment" or "not good enough" issue.

Radical Forgiveness
The power to heal is in the feelings - not in talking or thinking, not in affirmation, and not even in meditation if it involved shutting out feelings.
There is no such thing as positive or negative emotion. Emotions becomes "bad" and have a negative effect on us when they are suppressed, denied, or unexpressed. Positive thinking is really just another form of denial.


Soul
The good thing is that only during meditation, I felt safe to let out all my feelings.