Just accept where you are - go with the flow (2)

Aug 11

Yday, shakti, I was crying holding my heart, becos suddenly tot of me not having someone to share my love. My love over-flows and then it follows by laughter. Amen.

Father, today suria was effortless, despite some pain on both hands.
Suddenly tot my work was effortless. Also tot of yday romance show, so much drama. My love life won't have so much drama, infact very little. It will be effortless.
My mantra - Life is good.
Will change it to my Life is effortless. My love life is effortless. No need to worry abt it. It comes, it comes :).

Mmm, saw so many college students during breakfast. They are worrying about so many things. I recall I never tot abt my studies nor my career then. I don't even do revision kit, unlike others. Don't attend lectures. It was effortless, my best time in life. Even then, I didn't have romance, I was so fine.

For now, just accept my new life sytle. Just be in it. Amen. Whatever I required, will flow in.

Father, reading Radical Forgiveness, abt a gal who had multiple sclerosis did an art therapy and finally realised God loves her. Remind me of my own story of finally uncovering my valuation mode that make tot God consistenly give me challenges to prove my worthiness. I know God loves me and I created my own unlovability. Once I accept my valuation, no need to prove myself.

She was finally cured and started a support group for ms. She found her breakthru and was slowly recovering. She started a new life. She was using her voice and asking for what she wanted, and she was finding that she had the power not only to ask but also to receive.

Father, tot of me. First tot was why still has pain, infact worsen. Then another tot came. After the clearing and knowing God loves me, my pain has lessen and infact yday and this mornin, suria was effortless.

One part of me no longer wants an easy effortless life of just eating, sleeping and watching tv. I prefer my days of meditation, working and a little tv. Father, let me slow down. I am gulping too fast again. Guess, again I wonder what's next. Would there be a calling for me. Would I be encountering my love life. Mmm, perhaps this just the mind. Besides, m taking the counseling course in mid Oct and there is guru pooja in mid Sept.