Contentment within and compassion without (2)

Jul 30

Father, as I was meditating. A tot came. This is perfect. Firstly Osho card says that if I finally clean and clear, I will know Existence cares for me and then I can live without the need for control.

INTP (something that I hadn't tot abt a few mths already) says that my growth path is to stay in uncomfortable position, not to be in control.

INTP also mention abt the need to expand and share my world. To include instead of exclude the world. And here Osho - Nanak talks about self contentment and compassions for others.
Father, u r perfect.

Osho
As soon as ur mind becomes silent, the window falls away and you find yourself under the open skies. Then u begin to see how vast the expanse of existence. And when u realise the exquisite glory of existence, u wonder why u were lost in feeble nothings all this while.

As compassion firmly takes root, contentment will become more profound, and u will experience the dawning of the feeling of gratitude more profound.


(22 Aug - Amazing, why I am finally blogging this page after so long. After the workshop yday, seeing my mandala drawing and knowing that by my resisting to help others, I prevent my own Inner Sun from shining through. It is now at glowing up to the brim. I myself, prevented it from shining thru. Alas, I finally realise that I need them as much as they need me. Like RF says there is no victim mode here..all of us playing the drama we need to play to fulfill each other destiny. They play the role of requring help so that I can have the role of helper to fulfill my destiny as Queen of Diamond.
Its only when I finally accepted my role as Helper, I will achieve even more contentment.

Osho - Creativiy- True creativity arises from a union with the divine, with the mystical and the unknowable. Then it is both a joy for the creator and a blessing to others.

Father, not sure if I am arrogant, suddenly I tot myself as the Goddess of Beauty and Power that the Pyschic has seen. She says she will be meeting the Goddess soon.)


Evening
Received email from biggest client. Got bit worried abt workload n also loss of d client and etc. Glad a positive tot came back. This is not my burden to bear. Anyway, even if we lose this client is fine. That's means CEO will have to leave.

Osho - Nanak
If u stop putting urself in the middle, stop getting in ur own way, u will find the path of paths.
Leave all to him and be thankful for whatever he had caused to happen for u, for whatever he is making u do this moment, for whatever he will cause u to perform. All praise unto him. Give him a blank cheque of gratitude. Whether u liked it or not, whether u r praised or blamed, whether people called it ur good fortune or misfortune, let there not be even a trace of difference in ur thankfulness.

Soul
After I learn that my path of grow is to be in uncomfortable situation. I am more accepting. After seeing the Insight between me and CEO and seeing how she is the catalyst for me to work on my rship/communication. And I was too bling to see then. Now I can at least say I agree 60 percent.