Journey continues

Jul 22

Father, today the breathing meditation was so good. I really savour and the moment of gap before every breathe is so peaceful, such silence. Then I did shambavi, at first was bit stiff but later loosen up and I experienced silence.
When I was meditating, tots come in. This time I am learning to let them go, don't want to be hooked. For those good/useful tot, I will say thank u, but tell me later cos now not the right time. For those defensive/worrying tot, I try to let them go, was successful 50 percent of time.

Today, suddenly I realised both C and Ph is acting the same. Withholding things from me and both their behaviours is not common for them. While I have every right to demand. I really wanted to know what's my lesson here.
Tot if they gave me, I got something to work on. Knowing me, I will be good at it and of cos will be proud and feel valuable.
Am wondering whether this is my valueless lesson. I just decided to be valueless last week and now start encountering. Wonder if both of them is playing a role to help me to stay on with the valueless mode for awhile.
Not sure if this is right, but at least I no longer have defensive tot on them.

Radical Forgiveness
The seemingly haphazard events of our lives are attributed to the unfolding of divine plan, decided upon in advance, and completely purposeful in terms of our spiritual growth.
The more we surrender to this unfoldment without trying to control it, the more peaceful we become
At first blush, this seems a fatalistic viewpoint, but this is not just fate. In truth, the divine plan allows us a great deal of creativity and flexibility and continues to honor the principle of free will.
We continue to co-create with Spirit the circumstances of our lives and, without exception to get precisely what we want. The extent to which we resist (judge) what we get determines whether we experience life as painful or joyful.
Mastery of the life experiences, then, relies on our entering life fuller and trusting that we are taken care of and supported all the time, no matter what.

Soul
When I was thinkin of d contract. I said I need time to read so can meet deadline. Then I tot the deadline can shift since it is internal and besides I don't have to strive to meet it. As long, I kept Regional posted.
I told myself, trust the Existence to provide everything I need.

Soul
Father, when I first read this book on Radical Forgiveness. I tot that's my belief system. Now I m reading the part whereby a gal study to become a Radical Forgiveness coach and I suddenly tot its right for me.
For a few weeks, I have been hesistant on 7thunder. Wasn't as excited as I tot I wld be. Once I did my lifespread, interest waned. And to me, it is a good tool but I don't want to be a Card Reader. I don't want to study systems and etc. I want to use my Insight/Intuition to help people. For me, 7thunder is a good tool and a guide.

Radical Forgiveness
In the 13 steps process, we reframed the perception of the situation in such a way that it reflect spiritual truth - that the energy collapsed.
At no point did we "work" on her story. That would only have given it more power. Instead we used the holo-energetic technology of Radical Forgiveness to transform the energy.

Soul
Suddenly tot of my radical changed of perception on C and P's uncommon behaviours which I have full justification to wrath. I didn't wan to wrath and asked ego to stay quiet and I don't want to react and just stay with the situation. But suddenly I saw the similarity and asked for an alternative perception and I received the valueless lesson.
Father, a tot came. Could it be I am afraid to confront them out of fear of appearing not nice. Don't know lah. Anyway, no reaction for this week.
I am choosing valueless first until You gave me an answer cos there is no rush.

Afternoon
Just received d file from Ph at 11.30 am. I wonder if RF works.