7thunder interpretation for my rship with authority

Sept 2 Eve

Father, just now when a colleague criticised me for talking with mouth full. I didn't like it.
Now I know why, its because my brother used to criticise me a lots, telling me that I didn't do things correctly.
I hate it when people criticised me for not following society's norm such as manners, etiquette and etc.

My issue with authority stems from my brother. Our parents basically let us be independent.
That's why I hated most going to school, has to follow rulings and etc. I only enjoyed studying when I was in college when I attend class on free will.
Thank God, my brother left us to work elsewhere (9 of Hearts).

Nine of Hearts and Queen of Diamonds
Attraction - neg 2
Intensity - pos 3
Compatibility - neg 1

JUR to Queen - like to give me advice, money and etc.
Soul - agreed. He gave me car to use, gave me credit card and gave me load of advice/criticism which I don't like nor appreciate.
SAF and SAFS to Queen (Compatibility - neg 9, Intensity - 9, attraction - neg 5 )- I am his Saturn in Life and Spiritual - his teacher. It is a karmic rship. I present a challenge to him. And becos I was much younger, he used his authority to manage me instead so to avoid his lesson.

JUMS to Queen - We r Jupiter to each other in spiritual spread. We have a past life connection. It is a blessing.

Soul - Slowly I come to realise that.

MAR to Queen - He excites me and make me angry. He reminds me of things I don't like about myself.

Soul - true. I recalled its a hate/love rship. I recalled he teach me a lot but I hate it when he criticise me and used his authority to ask me to do things I don't like to. Always telling me that I need to improve in order to be competitive.

Queen of Diamond to 9 of Hearts
(Attraction - pos 1; Intensity - 1; compatibility - pos 1)

Yeap, I always keep my peace and at time avoid him cos he aggravates me. Push me. I affects him more than he affect me. But becos he is the elder, he used his authority to assert on me.

Father, now I understand.