I think I am not good enough??

Aug 16

Father, Thank U. My shoulder is recovering and today I did all the asanas. Hope tomorrow can do suria namaskara.
Father, my plough back and the lifting leg up is so effortless, thank U.

Also, my body finally accepted the 4.30 am wake up call. Yday, I slept abt 11 pm and woke up around 4 am.
On Sunday, despite the pain on my shoulder, I woke up around 6.15 am, before the alarm. And during evening nap, I put 2 hours and I woke up 15 min earlier, again before the alarm.

Father, noted my arms swell back. Didn't I love myself. But at least, no noticeable effects from d trip to outstation.

Heal Ur life
Tots and words create our future experiences. The words we speak are indicative of our inner tots.
And if the words doesn't match the experiences described, the person are either not in touch with what is really going on or are lying.
1. I should.
2. I could.

Father, I can't recall any 'Should'

Except I should be healed.

The rest shld be could.

I should be eating healthily - nope
I should earn money from all d advices given to people - yes
I should be in r ship - yes
I should be married - yes
I should be appreciative of my life - I am
I should be contented - yes
I should be pursuing my dream to be a Transformation Leader - yes
I should not be afraid - yes
I should have self-mastery by now - yes, but will be a long time
I should have been able to influence people to do meditation - part of me not keen cos I wan to be alone
I should have reduced the size of my arms - yes, but I still have not catch hold of it.
I should be writing more - Yes.

Father, apart from the health, the rest I didn't pursue cos I think I am not good enough.
Father, why I think that?
Outwardly, I think I am better than most? Why inwardly, I still don't think m good enough? Why am I still envious of others? Why why??


Heal Ur life
The Universe totally supports every tot we choose to think and to believe.
When we are little, we learn how to feel about ourselves and about life by the reactions of the adults around us.


Soul
Suddenly tot of me 'begging' for food. Compromising myself for good food, a taste of comfort. Even when I am displeased or not happy, I brushed it aside for the sake of good food.

Father, while I have experienced joy. There is still a part of me that thinks m not good enough for rship, for marriage, for being a transformation leader that get paid well.
Father, how can this be. I tot only that my issue is unlovability. Looks like the real issue is I think m not good enough and hence I become unlovable especially for people I perceive better off than me.