Positivity arise out of Purpose (2)

Aug 23

Father, this morning woke up. Was havin a dream but I was fresh. Did suria, the right elbow pained due to drawing last Sat. I know I was aware and move my hand down but alas even half an hour stationery also hav impact. Yday, checked my Vision Book and noted that I wrote retirement from Corporate at 45. Means I am aiming together with CEO. She is 10 years older than me.

Yday, while reading Destiny Card, it talked about Ace of Spade - lifting veil of illusion, that is exactly what CEO is now experiencing. That she is not a nice person, people close to her doesn't like but stayed for their own agenda, she is easily influenced and manipulated due to her reactiveness, her GM is against her all these while.

Father, just last week I was thinking od drainage pgm as I felt I need a clean up. Was thinking of CEO's pgm but too expensive and u got me Aspen's pgm instead and at 70 percent disc due to my bday last mth. If I had ordered last mth, I wouldn't have chosen the drainage pgm. What I need and want, comes to me.

(Soul - at first didn't feel anything. But not long thereafter, had my first discovery into my brother as my authority issue and the one who has taught me to have Inner self-criticism.)

As for the Why on d website. It is for Me. I need to express myself and along the way if people are led to it, I will be willing to guide them. I prefer writing to face-to-face counseling. But since it maybe unavoidable I would equipped myself with the counseling course.
Of course, I now know that the benefits is mutual. I helped them. I will be helping myself. There are just 'vehicle' for me to open up and allow my Inner Sun to shine through.

(Soul - decided against counseling as my forte is not grieve counseling. my forte is in coaching with my experience and like V says anyone who is top in their career.)

How
Not sure. But I think website is start. Counseling is 2nd.
Third writing. Fourth is public speaking.

What
Since my RA doesn't support too much stress, Yeap, job is fine, my RA is the push factor.
I want to do full time something that I enjoy and am good at - finding the Truth and bring it to laymen.
I like to explore, experience and find how ideas tick together.
I want to have a career in writing, some counseling and public speaking in future.
Yea, I a Light/Truth/Understanding Bringer. I want people to know everyone can help themselves. That the Light is within. Everyone's path is unique. They can set and create their own. Our Soul know best. But before that we must face our fear and clean them.

I don't think my forte is people or even transforming them cos firstly I am not keen, secondly I do have communication problem, I am impatient, I find them draining.

Soul Sister pgm - actually I can facilitate them. I noticed I even say that on Ishs teacher. Why I always think m better??? Cld this be ego. I always think m better than the Facilitators or Teachers but then I think m not good enough.

Father, am not a Counselor. I am a Catalyst. I am a Writer.
Why did it took me so long to know this? Becos its easier to be 'small' and be a Counselor, a Writer is an even bigger dream. Now I know why there was resistance on me being a Counselor.
I don't mind being part time Counselor, help people when asked to do so. But my preference is just to be left alone, search for Truth, filter it and write about my Insight.
Yeap, dream bigger