My authority issue revealed (2)

Aug 25 Evenin

My brother always say I am not born with good things
1. Not beautiful (Sept 17 - I look great, 10 years younger from my age)
2. Not smart (Sept 17 - While I dont have photographic memory. I am very intelligent. Able to grasp abstract accurately.)
3. Can't play sport as my brain connectivity is poor (Sept 17 - Still dont like sport, but I can now do yoga effortlessly)
4. Lazy, don't want to do housework. (Sept 17 - I am lazy when I dont like the task. On work, I am committed and in my spiritual path, I am disciplined)
5. Cannot sing (Sept 17 - can now sing during meditation)
6. Cannot dance. (Sept 17 - can now sing during meditation)

(Sept 17 - God, so much handicapped. No wonder I tot I was unworthy to be loved. No wonder I am so judgemental of myself inwardly and dislike any form of authority. Well, I am correcting all my chilhood beliefs.)


Net net, I need to work hard cos I am handicapped (God doesn't love me to provide me with the goodies) I need to prove my worth.

I remember I was playful all the way until the incident happen. He was my 'parent' and he broke my playfulness. Its only now I can feel my playfulness is back. Nevermind I am stronger now.

Father, want to read M ok, U ok again. Something here. Now will go back to undo the Belief that I am not lovable.

Teenage years
No one has say any good thing about me except I m emotionally well balanced. I can be counted on to be sensible as I don't let my emotion get in the way. I am mature.

Osho
Each person has to find his own way to God.
The way I reached will be of no use to u; it was my special way. You will have to find urs.
My understanding can be of use to u but not my path. My Insight can help u find ur way but ur way will be entirely ur own personal way. It shall bear ur imprint just as ur thumbprint can be only urs.

Soul
Exactly. That's why I am doing a site to express my way and to share that they can do it too, their way.

Osho
When u create something that is not a copy, not an imitation, there is no prayer that is greater. For u r nearest to God; in fact, in the moment of creation u r like him! You too are a creator. Creativity gives so much joy. How happy and satisfied u feel when u create something, however small, however significant.