Positivity arise out of Purpose (3)

Aug 23 after

Father, me and CEO rship has gone another level.
Alas, if Regional were to ask me who do I wan to keep. Personally, easier to manage GM, but for the Company, I still choose CEO cos intention in the right place.

The Soul Sister, 2 person has shared and m happy for them. I also shared my realisation. When I shared, I finally realised I am Writer, not a Counselor per se. With this insight, I felt at ease. Honestly, am not a people person. I guess it took so long for me to realise I am Writer cos I don't think m good enough to write. But the few articles I did, and wit V's feedback. I think I got potential. Also, now I really felt my Soul quiet down.

Osho
1. The Issue - The Master
Once u r aware, u can do and act on only that which makes u more joyous, fulfills u, gives u contentment, makes ur life a work of art, a beauty. There is no blissfulness more precious than freedom.
The Master in Zen is not a master over others, but a master of himself. He is not a teacher with a doctrine to impart, nor a supernatural messenger wit a direct line to God, but simply one who has become a living example of the highest potential that lies within each and every human being.
The community of seekers that arises around a Master becomes an energy field that supports each unique individual in finding his or her own light. Once that light is found, the disciple comes to understand that the outer Master was just a catalyst, a device to provoke the awakening of the inner.

Soul
Yeap, that's what I think of my role - a Catalyst and I in no way want to dictate the path. I just wan to show that there are tools out there and we can do it too.
Father, alas that's my purpose for the Community.
As for the world, the community will each light their own sphere.

2. Internal influence I can't see
Awareness
Burdened by the memories of the past, burdened by the projections of the future, u go on living - at the minimum. You don't live at the maximum. Your flame remains dim.
Once u start dropping tots, ur whole life becomes a flame, and a flame without any smoke. That is what awareness is. The veils is now dropping and as it burns, the face of a very delicate and childlike buddha becomes visible.

Soul
Father, I am now sure of my Destiny as a Catalyst Writer.
Father, yeap m lifting the black veil and letting my Inner Sun shines out.

3. External influence - Trust
Trust life. If u trust, only then u can drop ur knowledge, and put ur mind aside. With trust, something immense opens up. Then this life is no longer ordinary life, it becomes full of God, overflowing.
Just jump with hardly a tot for what happens next.

Soul
Yeap, the website is. And now I am disciplined about my Writings.

4. What is needed for Resolution
Moment to moment.
The past is no more and the future is not yet.
You can only be in the present only if u r not ambitious, no desire to achieve power, money prestige or even enlightenment, because all ambition leads u into the future.

A man who wants to be in the present has not to think, has just to see and enter the gae. Experience will come, but experience has not to be premeditated.

Be available to what comes ur way, as it comes. And don't worry if u stumble or fall; just pick urself up, dust urself, have a good laugh and carry on.

Soul
At first I was bit apprehensive on the situation between CEO and GM. But after reading CEO's Ace of Spade, unveiling the veil of Illusion, I now know its meant to happen. And the loss of rship relates to her and GM and also the change in my rship with CEO.

As for me, the workshop is just at the right time and now I know I am Catalyst Writer.

5. Resolutions - Projections.
Agency of the mind is the problem. Drop the mind and learn how to be immediate inr ur vision.

Soul
Just now when CEO asked me, I defended GM's position and I told CEO that like her, GM is also the breadwinner like her. She too cannot quit if she wants to. And her resentment was boiled up becos she is afraid of CEO's reaction.
I also told her that PD and I have both advised GM to quit so she has to prepare but we doubt she would quit cos she invested a lot.

What's my take in this???

Father, I told CEO that m stupid for declaring. I know abt GM's backstabbing 2 years ago. She replied that I didn't tell her and its her that prod it from me. So, everything happens. M not sure what's next but will see I told the CEO that I have confidence she will know what to do. Just now I told CEO to see GM with compassion. She has to stayed becos of money and it is not easy. Perhaps this 2 years, she is just feeling insecure.

Father, I know GM leaving is the best for the Company but I guess m feeling bit guilty cos I make her situation more precarious. Guess that's my Pluto with both 10 of Club.
Aiyah, m just a tool in the bigger event of life. Need not criticise myself. I can't go back.