Control results in stress (2)

Sept 1

Father, asanas were good. Was bit distracted by tots. But overall ok.
Has put on a bit of weight from so much eating but I know it will be off in a week or two.
Found out about brother in law's arthritis and I am not surprised as he is quite critical of people, fixated and operate on a narrow principle.
Shared this with my sis in law and she says she has a friend who got arthritis when she was 30 plus and she is also very critical and choosy.
So, Louise Hay's prescription is correct.

Tot of d Acct Asst and also d current issue between GM/CEO. Guess I reacted cos they invaded my parameters of control. My world has been mapped out and now shaken again. But at least I am aware and hence won't project my fear out.

And it is confirmed my body system has accepted the 4 hours sleep and I wake up before alarm despite sleeping around 12.30 pm. Father, thank u for the daily laughter before sleep. Somehow it releases the tension of d day. Yday, was havin tot of d guy, key word is intensity.
Father, coincidentally my chain broke 2 weeks back and my bracelet broke 1 week back. Why??

Heal Ur life
When we are asked to release old patterns, we are afraid to commit because we don't know all the answers. This is just resistance, just pass through it.
One of the great things is that we do not have to know how to release the old patterns. The Universal Intelligence or ur subsconscious mind will figure out the how's.
The tots u r thinking and the words u r declaring at this moment are creating ur future. Remember the point of power is now.
Your mind is a tool that u can untrain and retrain. Your mind is a tool for u to use in any way u wish.
The tots u choose to think create the experiences u have.

Soul
Yday when I have tot of d guy intensity and I couldn't sleep. I just told myself release it and I slept immediately. I am slowly but surely coming to the point that happy and unhappy tots is the same. Both disrupt the peace and contentment.

Heal Ur life
Your old tots are gone, there is nothing u can do about them except live out the experiences they caused.
Your current tots, the one u r thinking right now, is totally under ur control.

Soul
Father, when my world is not in control, I am afraid. I felt unsafe as if anything can happen next. There is so much uncertainty and I felt afraid.
I now realised the thing I fear most is uncertainty.
I wants certainty. That's why I am attracted to intense guy as they are more certain and their feeling won't wane.
Funny, I who seem to be easy, actually need to be in control as I don't like uncertainty and beneath it I am afraid. I don't feel safe.
Where did I get this belief that when things are not in place, I am not safe. I don't have certainty.