Accept and feel my emotion

Aug 26

Father, thank U. My right elbow and shoulder is less painful now. The left knee has recovered. True, doing yoga when in pain is not easy but the results is that the pain will be gone after a few cycles.

Tot of H and her socso claim. While I don't mind resign and get 50 percent salary, I don't relish the tot of being ill to the extent of having to eat steroid and etc.
So, I tot let's heal myself instead. Instead of looking at worse off situation, reclaimed back my power.

Yday reading about Here and Now is the power of change. I admit I couldn't see it yet but yday CEO proves it to me. For all these years up till a week ago, her ego was at max, only tot of herself, couldn't take any guilt at all. Now she is able to be calm abt the situation with GM, able to keep it confidential and didn't share with her husband. She even asked me if she is preventing people from growth, about her always thinking of herself and perhaps her husband has his own issue and she doesn't want to trouble. Major turnaround. So, her 7 card is confirmed a spiritual number.

Heal Ur life
There is the spiritual approach, mental approach and the physical approach. Holistic healing includes body, mind and spirit. You can begin in any one of these areas as long as u eventually include all these areas.
Mental approach - workshop or therapy
Spiritual approach - meditation or prayer
When u begin to clean ur 'house'. It doesn't really matter where u start in. Just begin in the area that appeals to u most. The others will happen almost by itself.

Soul
I begin with mental, striving till the very end, and then started on spiritual and fell straight in effortlessly, the physical happens by itself.
I took most time in mental, spiritual and physical was effortless.

Father, these 2 months, my knee, elbow, feet, wrist all have undergone crisis. Wonder why. Anyway, will do the drainage system.

Received a reply from C.
To my surprise and disappointment, she now claimed that I didn't understand her situation and I threatened her.

Threaten a bit, yep. Cos I have waited too long and I need to put a stop to it. Like CEO says we r no pushover.
She said she has higher expectation of me. Well, in my previous self, I would have already threaten her 2 months ago. So, a breather of 2 months is great already. More puzzling is that until now she can still claim innocence, eventhough she delayed it for 4 months not including delay prior to purchase, May, June, July Aug. That's the most surprising.
Anyway, hope to receive the cd by next Tue. She has agreed few times already but never deliver.
Father, I didn't even wan to reply her mail. This is the end of a rship. We haven't connect since late last year. Anyway, she hasn't call me this year too, except for the purchase of cd.

Just now tot of brother, my Authority. Realised he also 'say down" to her daughter, telling her 'weakness'. So, she has to more careful and need to overcome it. Perhaps, this is a case of Not Good Enough.