Uncertainty

Aug 21 Even

Father, just got back from P's house. We have a lovely time. She is going for Joshua's channeling. Shared with her on C's peculiar behaviour, she too was puzzled. I told her only thing I tot of is that I am to start my website on my own.
I can now open up to her on my experiences.
She says the reason why m unsure of pursuing my Passion wholeheartedly is becos m not sure if it would generate money. Possible. 2nd issue is less time for myself. 3rd issue is loss of energy. 4th is not sure if I can gain respect and become good like I am in my career.
Father, so loss of money, loss of valuation, energy, time.

Again, that's why we don't change even if we knows its good. We r avoiding loss of security instead of pursuing our Passion. Avoiding unhappiness instead of pursuing happiness.
Father, to make my career stagnant, I have done. But to make my career nil and to exchange it with another career that I have no idea of success and if success, not sure got time for myself and etc.
Guess the Positivity card is the answer.

Osho - Nanak
Nothing causes as much pain and suffering as the ego. Increase ego, u increase ur suffering. You can contain the whole of hell within ur fist.
The more u desire joy, happiness, the less ur ego will have to be. The day ur ego is no more, the whole of heaven will be in ur grasp. It will follow u like ur own shadow.
Happiness and unhappiness are not connected with situations but with the twenty-one within u - whether it is true or false.