When you give up, Help comes (3)

Aug 19 Even

Father, the GM is getting more on my nerve, rather than CEO. I don't like people to ask me for behind the scene info. I am not her confidante. Actually, doesn't she realised I am closer to CEO rather than her. Its true CEO can be tiring and explosive, but I know she has a good heart, whereas m not sure on the GM. I have already told CEO that GM is the last person I trust.
Also, just now PD sharing abt the 'infamous email' to GM, a complete opposite version from her story to me. Which one is real.
She has continuously 2 days 'checked' on her status with CEO. Yday, I told her 20 percent and today I told her 0 percent. I am not a 'Teller'. While CEO may be suspicious, she asked there and then, but GM is asking for 'forward" info.
Like PD says, the middleman is in very difficult situation.

My white gold chain broke suddenly yday and I asked why yday. Just now, when I was meditating, suddenly tot of d brown stone brooch that I wanted to turned into a pendant. Was still thinking who can do and here I got my answer.

Osho - Nanak
Those who wish to seek must first explore thoroughly and entirely; then they have to let go of all searching. Only when they have tried totally, should the search be given up, not before that, or else all goes in vain.
When the search is complete, when u have staked ur all without holding back a single thing, only then does the search slip from the conscious to the unconscious; for there u r not, ur ego is no more.
When u r exhausted, the ego dissolved. As ego dissolved, the door to the unconscious opens. As the door of the unconscious is the entrance to God.
It is His grace alone that few attained. But it is thru ur own efforts alone u become worthy of his compassion.
His grace showers on all, but some are not fit for it because their lack of self efforts.
No one is worthy, no one is unworthy. He gives, he showers on all alike. But if u r not ready to take, u will keep on missing cos. You are not ready to take his grace.

(Sept 8 - I am a seeker that has given up on myself (mind) and now just experiencing (flowering)