Tamil IE

Sept 5

Attended the Tamil initiation today. It wasn't as powerful as the previous initiation. It was more of an acceptance, I was dancing, singing and laughing. Towards the end was just silence and peace.

But the amazing part was the mother session in tamil. Despite the difference in language, I was receptive, I cried loads, followed by laughter.

Father, I have accepted myself. I am back to my natural self. Today dinner with brother and I can see him for what he is. He no longer affects me, his criticism no longer sting, it just dropped. Amen.

I finally did it. I regained my Power, just like the inner child card say I would.

Frankly both d guys also not up to what I want. The IE teacher is so lovely. So strong and yet soft. So focused and yet humorous. So much power and yet unassuming. He is intelligent and spiritual. You can just sense the loving compassion that is emitted. We haved the most relaxed IE ever.
Yeap, could say that I fell in love :). But he is such a lovely guy. He has such a lovely smile, so loving.
That's what I want to be. That's the type of guy I want. Not someone rich in wealth but someone rich in their beingness. Comfortable in their own skin, don't have to assert their valuation. They just be.
Mmm, that's what I want to be too.
He joined Isha since 15 years ago. Mmm, me just 2 years, something to look forward to, the next 13 years.

(Sept 27 - of cos, am back to the mundane world. I can't say I will let go of the richness, but at least I know I can be loving myself. Like my friend P says, once you can see, you have it inside you. I have the loving compassion inside me...it just need me to release it)

Osho - Nanak
Power is the expression in the Realm of Grace
He who attains his grace attains this intense magnetism. You are drawn towards him. You try to stop urself but cannot, for some magnificent attraction bind u to him in spite of all ur efforts.
We have only to step aside and give way to the energy.


Soul
Perhaps that explaing why we all are drawn to the Tamil IE teacher.