My mirror on authority with S, same as my brother with me

Sept 4
Father, just like my brother loves me by criticising me. Asking me to be more than I am now.

I just realised I am doing the same to S. I care about him and expect more cos I see the potential in him. I was wondering and feeling guilty why I gave him a hard time when he did good in so many other areas. I didn't like myself for my negative and harsh statements to him. I tot it was him and I did wonder if it was me. But when I asked P and W (of cos they are coloured), they say its him. But I have been asking why??

When he made mistake or miss my expectation, I reacted cos I tot I didn't guide him enough. Couldn't help him to be the great person that he could be. Among all my current staff, I care for him the most. I think he has the greatest potential.

Father, I too showed my love the wrong way.
I take back my power and will show my love in a positive instead of negative way. I recalled S said to stop thinking he can be great cos he doesn't feel so and also I would be disappointed.

Father, is the same I told my brother. I told him this is what I am and I don't care to be more.

Heal Ur Life
Pay attention to what u say. The word u say is reflective of what u feel. And ur feeling is ur vibration. And the Universe picks up ur vibration as ur Point of Attraction. Universe respond to ur vibration.


Soul
Thanks for sending S. I will love him right. My brother's way of loving is not mine. I am a sweet and innocent person and I would never hurt people consciously.

I will guide myself lovingly.

Affirmation
I accept and guide myself lovingly.
I love and approve of myself.
I am my Natural Self.
I do work that I like.
I worked with people that I like
I am earning good money for doing what I like.

Soul
When I was napping for 3.5 hours today. I dream of d person and I was with him. For the first time, I dream of being together. A great turn-around that I am ready to be in a rship.

Louis hay
- a 12 page pamphlet.
- 5000 copies
- sold within 2 years later.


(Sept 27 - Father, I am starting out an ebook comprising 10 articles, target 5,000 readers on a monthly basis.)

Father, now I know why I don't like criticism of others and myself. Its because I have been criticising myself unconsciously. I have not been loving myself.
I now lift out the criticism.

Father, such irony.
Alas I discover the root of my RA, which inner-self criticism. The beauty is u brought S into my life so that I can see what my brother did to me, I am doing to S and myself. Amen.
Father, S must be feeling that I am hard on him. The more I am hard on him, the more he thinks is the others influencing me. But that's not true. Its me.
Father, I never realised he is a real blessing to me.

Father, no wonder Teacher says anything also good for me. She said I am very receptive. I am receptive cos I am open. I am open because I am willing. I am willing because I am determined to be back in Power of myself. My aim is Self-mastery.

Father, my Insight - Lifting the veil of illusion, either self-created or people-created.

(Sept 27 - I finally take charge. S is not me and not good at strategising. Infact his strategy is to hire his strength and he worked on improving his weakness. I told him that is not right, I aim to have easy life, not difficult life. I finally pull the plug and we will hire his weakness instead. He would then worked on his managing skills)

Eczema
Antagonism - an active hostility or opposition
The inhibition of the growth of one type of organism by a different type of organsim that is competing for the same ecological niche.

Not being able to release anger and not being able to forgive.


Soul - yeap, I was guiding S harshly, the way my brother was guiding him. Instead of accepting and acknowleding his strength. I was critical of his weakness and forever asking him to approve. I forgot to let him know his strength is more important than his weakness. We r each different.
Father, I got back my Power. And mine is an Innocent Loving Power and not a harsh criticising power.

Father, Amen.

Sept 4 Eve
Father, U r really great. Whatever I need will be brought to me. Anything at all.
I never knew S is my mirror. And it is timely becos its after I learned about me learning from my brother loving criticisingly instead of loving acceptingly. I have been doing it to myself unconsciously all these years. And for the first time, I did it to my staff, S. He was the first one that I tot was my equal and hence I measured and expect him to deliver as per me.
All in its right place.

Father, its worth it, all the joints pain that I faced these last 3 months. Never once I blamed u, I knew its me. And here followed with Soul Sisters today and my brother came back yday, Sadhguru's birthday yesterday and tomorrow IE initiation. Everything happening right on. One after another.

I found my Natural Innocent Self. Tomorrow IE is to cement it.


Osho - Nanak
As soon as the rays of his compassion descend on you, u attain infinite power.
You become capable of untold power; u touch mud and it becomes gold.
Now wherever u look, u see heaven.
Now u r no more and everything is possible.
Wherever ur eyes look, the gates of heaven will open. Wherever u go, whatever u do, the very air in that place will change. The people who gather around u will be affected by ur glory, it will permeate them.

Energy or power is active and infectious. Well-being and health are equally infectious. Not only does evil enter u through others, but also goodness enters u and flows to others.
From within we are all connected and flow onto each other.