Apprehension on Z's response

Dec 25
Father, did my practices. Suria was quite effortless. I had some resistance at first but I said let body decide and it chose suria. Breathing was fine. Shakti and Shambavi good too. Amen.

When I was doing my practice,a msg comes in. Got bit excited and then tot of Z and negative tots came. I told myself have faith.

It is now noon and still no reply from him. But I m fine for now. I know I made the right decision by my declaration. Next step up to him. I just know I will be fine.

Just did our osho relationship card.
Me - abundance, Zorba card.
Him - evolution, changes
Composite - lovers
Insight - freedom.

Osho
The first lesson of love is not to ask for love, but just give. Become a giver. And people are doing just the opposite. Even when they give, they give only with the idea that love should come back. It is a bargain. They don't share, they don't share freely. They share with a condition. They go on watching out of the corner of their eye whether it is coming back or not. Very poor people .... they don't know the natural functioning of love. U simply pour, it will come.
And if it is not coming, nothing to be worried about., because a lover knows that to love is to be happy. If it comes, good; then the happiness is multiplied. But even if it never comes back, in the very act of loving, u become so happy, so ecstatic, who bothers whether it comes back or not.

Love has its own intrinsic happiness. It happens when u love. There is no need to wait for the result. Just start loving. By and by, u will see much more love is coming back to u. One loves and comes to know what love is, only by loving. As one learns swimming by swimming, by loving, one loves.


Soul
Father, thanks for this msg. Very timely.

Osho
Don't wait that u will only love when the right person happens. Then the right person will never happen. Go on loving. The more u love, the more is the possibility for the right person to happen, because ur heart starts flowering. And a flowering heart attracts many bees, many lovers.
One understand life, one understands the responsibility of life, one understands the problems of being together with a person. One accepts all the difficulties and yet decides to live with the person. One is not hoping that there is only going to be heaven, all roses.
When u have become alert to all these problems and still u decide that it is worthwhile to take the risk and be the person rather than to be alone, then get married.

Soul
Yea. I know. But Z is worth the pain.

Osho
Marriage itself never destroy anything. Marriage simply brings out whatsoever is hidden in u - it brings it out. If love is hidden behind u, inside u, marriage brings it out. If love is just pretension, just a bait, then sooner or later it will disappear. And then ur reality, ur ugly personality comes up. Marriage simply is an opportunity, so whatsoever u had to bring out will come out.

If u grow, if u know the art, and u accept the realities of love-life, it goes on growing every day. Marriage becomes a tremendous opportunity to grow into love.  Nothing can destroy love. If it is there, it goes on growing.

If just by being in the presence of the other, u feel suddenly happy, u feel ecstatic. Just the presence of the other helps u to be together. U become more individual, more centred, more grounded. Then that is love.

Love is not a passion, love is not an emotion. Love is a very deep understanding that somebody completes u. Somebody makes u a full circle. The presence of the other enhances ur presence. Love gives freedom to be urself; it is not possessiveness.