Lost of approval

Dec 7 afternoon
Father, a complaint and this time J over reacted. The emails from the client (my ex company) is getting nasty. The tone is not respectful. They wouldn't dare to do this previously. But I guess now that I don't have the power n with S's email getting more curt. I was not bothered with S, cos I never got her approval. But now the lower ranking staff who used to respect me and give me face also not bothered. And then a call from J as she too believed their complaint. I felt I lost her approval too. The old me would have reacted n scolded my team or attack the client. Now I truly knew I only sought to defend approvals received.

I guess I can handle this.,,, ,six of diamonds.

Z called me immediately after his hearing. He shared with me everything is now settled n his financials is concrete n he even got the loan to expand his business.  A tot came to me, there is hope for us. I told him I m leaving for India tomorrow. I couldn't chat long cos I need to drive home. When I hang up, I tot why do I always hesitate whenever he makes a move. I recalled the house connection between us. Anyway, I already decided this morning to go with the flow. I love Z and will see how it goes. Need not restrained myself.
So, I called him back and we chatted for another half hour. He shared about his financials plan but this time I m not afraid cos I know he can handle it and care for me too. He shared about his family and also told me that he is now wearing an expensive reading glass.  He ended the conversation by saying we will catch up once I come back from India. Father, there is glimmer of hope for us just when I have given up on him changing his mind.

Only thing, not sure why P keep on saying Z sees me like elder sister as he kept me abreast of his happenings. Z shares everything with me, I also do the same. We are each other friend.

Dec 26 (My hope on Z is dashed)