Desires...acquisition and enjoyment

Dec 9
Just finished attending sathsang in outskirt of chennai. The ambience is not there and they don't start on time, video is spoilt with stoppages in every 2 to 3 minutes. I tot our team back home is real great. We are professional, must give thanks to the team.

The ambience was not there n I couldn't understand tamil language. Despite everything, I was laughing. Just feeling joyful. Energy is good.

Tot of whether to extend my trip since office is closed on 21 to 25 Dec. But I don't think I can wait do long cos I will miss my family and Z. I want to go back to them.

The fall of the human intellect -
A. Parthasarathy
Desires manifest as two powerful motivations in life - acquisition and enjoyment.
U want to acquire whatever u desire from the world.
And after acquiring, u long to enjoy what u have acquired. 
None has found true happiness in mere acquisition or enjoyment. Yet the chase never ends.
People are ultimately exhausted with their futile efforts and become frustrated and unhappy.

Soul
I tot both Z and V has strong desires. Me, I don't have cos I m not willing to pay the price. I preferred to safeguards what I have. I don't go for capital commitment because it not only reduce my current savings but also takes over future savings.







Dec 26
Perhaps Z really need to be gone from my life. Perhaps I am unwilling to change...to move forward and hence I go back. Like Sadhguru says, when you are in fear, you live in the past..but when you are in desires, you live in the future.
Z lives in desires and already moved on without me.
Whereas, I am in fear...and lived in the past and afraid to move on....