Me defending approvals received rather than seeking for approval

Dec 6
Father, I woke up 4.30 am when alarm rang. Was having a dream about my family. Bit of resistance cos I slept about 11.30 pm but got no excuse. So, did my Suria Namaskara, was not able to close feet till
5th cycle but overall quite good cos I don't feel tired and was laughing a bit.
Finished practices earlier cos couldn't do proper kapala bhakti due to menses. Took a 15 minutes nap and had a dream of driving my big car into a parking tunnel inside a hill. Many turnings, remind me of ex company winding parking lot. I just bull dozed ahead eventhough I was afraid.

Father, I keep having recurring dream relating to car park.

I also realised that V is right on me defending the approvals I already have rather than seeking for approval. So, I m more afraid of losing current approval. That's why I am affected by friends n colleagues rather than stranger and acquaintances. Key word here is defending.