Sadhguru's foot print

Dec 10 aft
Father, just did my Shoonya. I felt good. It wasn't easy to get in but these days I can be still during Shoonya. There were some tots of Z.

A week ago, I had given hope on us and even decided that I will stop communications so I can forget him. Alas, there is hope cos he keep on using the key word he is now 'settled' financially. I recalled the first conversation he told me his plan of how he will get settled. Second conversation is on his expensive car and now third conversation is he is now settled and he wants us to catch up.

Father, here we goes again. Aiyah, he is in my blood. For better or worse I m with him. He is worth the pain.,,, ha ha

evening
A great night. I was invited to a weekly guru pooja of Sadhguru's foot print carved stone and also linga Bhairavi's Budi. The energy was great, as if I m back at bhava Spandana hall. I was crying and laughing loads. I was dancing without music, like during samyama programme.  Then I did abridged version of Shambhavi and I just sit quietly. Then when it time to wake up, laughter just erupted. Just like yesterday's isha kriya session. The owner gave me a flat  buddha statute which he bought during a pilgrimage trip with Sadhguru.

What a great time in Chennai. Met so many lovely people.
I also bought 6 lovely tops and I plan to buy some more in Coimbatore. These 3 days in Chennai just passed by so fast. At first I tot it be long, but the days just passed. I be back next November for Samyama sadhana.