When u r afraid, past rules u

Dec 2 eve

Father, I just got back from family dinner. We had a good time, another one in my Top Five, just like Z.  Suddenly missing him. Just checked his picture profile. Hope I be completely over him when I come back from Ashram in mid Dec. 

Just now I had dream with sex elements. This has gone on for few days. Guess I m nearing my menses and missing my sessions with Z. It has been more than 2 months. I be fine.

Sadhguru
If fear rules, u will see that the past will be very important for u. But if desire rules u, the future will be very important for u, and life here becomes unimportant.

When an individual is not an individual but a whole mess of nonsense that he has gathered from the past, then this is the way life happens: either he clings to the past, when he is afraid or when he feels a little brave, he has desires about the future. He is never in the moment.
All of creation and the creator is in the moment, but the engine of life for most people is sustained or demolished by the process of memory and desire.