Z's finally said nope and he has moved on

Dec 25 Eve

Father, Z replied that he is now in the midst of restructuring and he decided he will get marry next year. He wish me all the best in my future undertakings.

This is him wishing me goodbye. We started with  BB and now he is into Samsung. Me, feeling sad.

Mmm, was the bird of freedom telling me that we r both freed from each other? 

Father, at least I asked for an answer instead of waiting for 3 months.

I replied that I m sad as it looks like I was never in his plan.

I won't keep my feelings to myself now. But no begging either. I will just need to have faith, my own faith since my Cosmic lesson is now over. I did promise that I will let the Cosmic lesson ends. Z knew I couldn't end and so he ended it. Anyway, no regrets. I had what I need. Main thing is I am now aware of my Outsider card.

I  didn't expect this as I tot he will ask for time. And I was planning we can have our chat.  But he wanted to end it...he don't want me to hold on any longer. He is the diamond that I knew.

I m sad.,,,and his card says that he will get his Heart gal next month. So his plan for mid year could be true. If his is true, then my dream of self mastery will becomes true too.

Still feeling sad. But I m glad I jumped and asked directly, so there will be no regrets, no what if.