Expectation has to be tempered

Dec 10
Father, woke up 6.25 am to do my practices. I did suria namaskara and by second cycle I was laughing and my feet were able to close together. Little laugh in the meditation but I am able to obtain violet flame during surka kriya.

I had tots of Z and we can use our voucher. Father, I have chosen him and I want to stay with him. I knew he will continues on his spending philosophy but I also know he will take care of himself and me, once he gave me his commitment. I will ask him when I see him. I can also see he is very involved in his extended family gathering. I m not sure if I want such hectic social life. I just want time alone.

The fall of Human Intellect.
The divorce rate among couples in most developed advance countries has reached an alarmingly high levels. Parents have constant confrontation with their children.
The cause for this sad state of affairs is the lack of individual assessment of humans. People do not study and determine the nature of persons individually and expect one to behave different from one's basic structure. Like expecting a lion to behave like a deer or vice versa.
U cannot expect people to behave according to ur mental pattern. This is just not possible. Unreasonable expectation cause mental anguish.  Expect one to behave according to one's particular nature. And understand that every human helplessly manifest his own nature. As u do yours.

Soul
Father, noted. In my case, it is an even more grievous blunder as I can see people and predicts their behaviour. But I let my fear of losing approval affects me.

The fall of human intellect
U must learn and look at persons, beings and things, environments and situations as they are and not what u like them to be. U would then be able to appreciate the beauty in everything, everybody, everywhere.