Cosmic Lesson - Z showed me my path to power; he forced me go within and come out strong!

Sept 2 Eve (Z is my door)

Late afternoon
It is now nearly evening and still no response. My mind is working overtime that Z is rejecting me. Then a tot came, this is similar to the gal who tot her lover abandon her at the airport after their trip.

I won't go there. Father, let me be strong to face the pain. I am not listening to my old stories anymore. I already received the cake by initiating and calling for invite. It is ok. Focus on the positive instead of the missing icing.

I also remember the man of Tao, is whole, there is no one to wound. Let me remember that even if he doesn't want to meet up, he is only protecting his own wound and not trying to wound me. Let me not take this personally and remind myself I am 3S, smart, spiritual and sensual woman. Amen


Evening
It is now 3 hours later and I am going home. Just now I felt sad and got bit of tears brimming my eyes. But I told myself to be strong and don't close up. Just face and feel the pain. Moments later the pain pass away.

I will meet him next week and like usual, he will pretend nothing happen

Not sure if this will last but I am fine. Also had a tot that why seek love? If he cannot give, just drop. Mmmm. I am 3S.

Night
He finally replied a K to my text. First tot was to call him. Then I stop and text him. Just wanted to tell him its ok. But I just let go and told him I expect a call or response.

The old me wouldn't dare to. The new me is not bothered. We been through much and if I cannot express my feeling, then it be suppressed and turn into resentment.

Main thing is go with the flow. I don't think he will call cos he would said he doesn't want to be scolded. But at least I said my piece.

Just watched an inspiring real movie about an autistic lady. She faces her challenges head on. Every time she sees the challenges like doors that lead to another world. The other world is what led her to ignore her fear and moved straight on.

Suddenly tot of Z being my door. Going with Z is like going thru doors that opens up to another world. It is scary when I approach the doors. But once I open the doors, generally what I feared never happen and instead I get another world.
This is exactly what the autism gal describe.

Father, thank U for everything. For the first time I am fine with no follow thru from him. I don't take it personally like before. Father, I am committed to opening all the doors with Z. I will focus on the rewards instead of Z or even the price to pay. Z is not the target but the door is. Now I truly understand the meaning of Cosmic Lesson.


(Sept 9 - I found out later that his phone is spoilt and not receiving messenger anymore. So, he didn't get my message. All the drama for nothing. And my text also didn't mention about my earlier msg. He did replied to my text.)


Cosmic Lesson
Z is playing an instrumental role in helping you find your path to power.
It is not an easy connection, it could be one of the most powerful and important rships of ur life. Taken with the proper attitude, it could provide the catalyst for finding your life's work and purpose on a more universal life.