Facing a show-down with boss

Aug 25 Eve

Father, what a fiasco. I already had bit of uneasiness with boss before she left and I tot we cleared the air. Last minute she throw in a request for advance, which I cannot do and I asserted my authority.
At first, I judged for her being unreasonable and making me having to say no and spoiling our rship. I felt she should have known me by now.

On second tot, she will most likely do it for her staff if they face such predicament.
I am surprised. I wasn't so apologetic and told her that's is beyond my jurisdiction and rules are not set by me. And I ended the msg by wishing her well.

If this were to happen months back, I would be affected but now I am fine. She may attack me when she is back. But I would view that as a push factor for me to get a new job as I am already not happy in current role. I am unable to contribute and is not encourage to contribute. I am pissed they brushed off my ideas and inputs when it is sound.
For example, my input about the lack of wow in their strategy which they brushed off and said I couldn't understand. And here client also think the same.
Father, I have input.

Just now when she was scolding me and I was judging her and started to feel sad for myself. I stopped my negative tots and I affirm that I want to work with people who appreciate me for my strength, my integrity.

Father, such irony I got Ace of Spades, new beginning. Currently, the only thing holding me back was rship with boss. I already negotiated for 4 days in new company but not sure to leave current. But if the rship is gone, there is no reason for me to stay.

Father, I am also excited that a colleague has helped me to do the drill down list of image. Make life easier.