Z is my mirror, we are both wearing amour against love

Sept 6 Aft

I am happy my regional boss appreciate me. He gave me some TLC. I also shared with him my grievances.

Also, when E told me their group is getting larger and will be bigger than ours. I told him that I should jump ship and he readily welcome me.

Father, I am lovable and appreciated. As for local boss, she got a big disappointment and was angry at others, so I am spared.

Ask and It is Given
Some people come to think that the feeling of desire is like wanting something that they do not have. So, while they are using words of desire, they are offering a vibration of lack of what they want or about the absence. This is also called a state of resisted desire resulting in a sluggish, unfulfilled feeling.

We understand why some would suggest that if u would release ur desire, u would feel better, because the negative emotion that u r feeling is due to the vibrational difference between ur current vibration and the vibration of ur desire.

But releasing desire is the hard way to go about bringing yourself into alignment, because the entire Universe is poised to help u give birth to yet another new desire.

So, a much easier way to come into alignment with your Source, and therefore to feel better, is to work on releasing your resistance.

Use ur imagination until ur big dream feels so familiar that the manifestation is the next logical step. When ur desire feels so big that it feels unreachable.

Soul
What I want from Z is not future. He is entitled to his goal. What I want is for him to be with me now until we part. I want him to open up and enjoy us.

Suddenly I tot I too am not doing it. I initiate and when I failed, I closed up. Its like a crab. For me, when I open, I open small and close quickly when I didn't get what I want in the timing I wanted.

Suddenly I recalled he said when he open, he open all and that's why he cannot open at all. That's why he cannot allow himself to want me too much.

And when I said I am not as strong as him. I have feelings. He said it is not because he is stronger but because he has been hurt many times.

Ah Ha moment! So, his amour is even thicker than mine. And coupled with his plan for marriage,

So, it is easier for me to be open. I just msg him for next week.

Mmm, why I forgot about all these?! Why I only think of him not loving me cos I am not lovable enough.
Actually I should be happy that he cannot allow himself to open up, to call me, etc cos that's means I am a potential trigger he cannot allow. If I cannot trigger him, he would have no fear at all.

Mmmm, this seems to be a positive way of looking at us. This is a first. What a turnaround. So, instead of me harping on him to release his amour, why don't I use the energy to open mine.

Suddenly tot of ACIM, perception is learning. I must 'teach' what I want him to learn.

Once I msg him, I felt a sense of release. Of cos, m waiting for response. He will revert. He already told me that day he too is eager for our meetup.