Cosmic Reward - learning to live in the Now

Aug 23 Aft
Live in the Now, Learn in the Now and Change your Future.

Actually, I am beginning to appreciate Z in my life. He is Pluto and Cosmic and his difficult presence force me to evaluate and make changes within myself.

Ask and It is Given
When u expect something, it is on the way.
When u believe something, it is on the way.
When u fear something, it is on the way.
Your mood is always pointing towards what is coming.
But u r never stuck with ur current point of attraction. U can decide to change your point of attraction and create a different experience.

If there are things in ur experience that u no longer wish to experience, ur belief must change.

If there are things that are not in ur experience that u want to bring into ur experience, ur belief must change.

There is no condition so severe that u cannot reverse it by choosing different tots. However, choosing different tots requires focus and practice.
If u continue to focus as u have been, to think as u have been, and to believe as u have been, then nothing in ur experience will change.

If u want things to change to different things, u must think different tots. And that simply requires finding unfamiliar ways of approaching familiar subjects.

Soul
There is a way out. So, my new learning is valid;
Live in the Now, Learn in the Now and Change your Future.

On Z, now I just focus that I want to play with him. Playing with him is Top 5. He is not my partner. So, I treat him as my playmate. And I can do or say whatever I want cos I know he is fine with whatever I say. And since he is not my partner, I don't have to care or be responsible for him, worrying about him or worry of how I present myself to him and etc.

Mmm, such confidence, such freedom. Mmmm, not sure lah. I wonder if this is real.

But somehow tots of him come less into my mind now that I am back with him. And I don't find the anxious need to comfort him, to talk to him, to tell him how I feel, to get him involve in my life or etc.

Is this for real??
All my dilemma for going back to him and here I am more freed than before. More confident than before. Not anxious about him.

Ask and It is Given
Know that there is a conscious connection of all three;
1. Tots
2. Feelings
3. Manifestations.

And without that conscious connection, u cannot know where u r in relationship to that which u desire.

The only thing that ever prevents ur receiving something that u desire is that ur habit of tot is different from ur desire.
Once u r aware of the power of ur tots, and of ur ability to allow in things that u desire, u then have creative control over ur experience.

But u must be focused on the feelings u have within ur tots rather than the results of ur tots.


Aug 23 Eve
Father, I packed my bag and ready to go back to him. I didn't think of chatting up with him. Not sure if this is all false bravado. But somehow I am detached about it.