My fear drama on returning to Z is false

Aug 25

Father, Z and I had a great time yesterday. We did some preliminary questions of what's going on with us for the past 2 months. We got on well famously. We had great laughter and he cherished me physically.

He told me he didn't see my first msg and that's why he replied so late. He also told me he forgot to give the payment. I guess he wants to start on clean slate. He shared with me his latest presentation slides. He also told me he was alone for 2 weeks in a stretch and would have asked me if he knew I was keen. He told me that he wanted me to be in his house.

Father, just focus on the now and what's make me happy now. Forget about the prices. Learn from Z.

Ask and It is Given
Ur desire is the natural result of the contrast in which u r focused. The entire Universe exists to inspire the next new desire. So, if u r trying to avoid ur own desire, u r attempting to move contrary to Universal Forces.

There is no desire that anyone holds for any other reason than that they believe they will feel better in the achievement of it. The standard of success is absolutely the amount of joy u feel.

The basis of life is freedom, and the result of life is expansion - but the purpose of ur life is joy.

And that is why the main event has never been the manifestation. It has always been the way u feel in the moment.

In other words, u intended to come into the physical realm of contrast to define what is wanted, to connect with the Energy that creates the worlds, and to flow it toward ur objects of attention - not because the objects of attention are important, but because the act of flowing Energy is essential to life.


Soul
No wonder is going towards the desire is the most exciting and joyful states. It is even more so than the actual manifestation.
When I decided to go back to him and msg him, I was bit delirious with joy and anticipation.

52 days in Venus
Ace of Spades
The card for death or change and transformation. U will go through some sort of death and rebirth, or at the least, some important and powerful changes.

Ace of Spades could also mean new beginning for work, when we r launching a new job or occupation.

Soul
To me, its a death and rebirth of my view on rship. I tot going back to him was death. I did died when I was deliberating on the decision. But after I decided, I was apprehensive. And once I acted, I was joyful. Once, we got back together, its just natural as if we have never split and we r more comfortable with each other, much more than before.