Nothing is more important that me feeling good to manifest my desires

Sept 8
Father, practice was fine. These days I am conscious of my tots and can pull back. Surprisingly little tots of Z. Guess its because I had already decided.

A tot occurred to me. I have been accusing Z of being insensitive when he suggest ways for me to control my feelings and etc. And when he sees my feelings in control, he suggested that we should continue.
Perhaps he tot I don't want long term and when I had feelings, I want to stop because I don't want long term.
He didn't know that I broke it off because I wanted long term. Nope..when we broke of.. Hei, could be. Cos what I asked was just openness, I don't dare to ask long term cos I cannot commit to his children plan. Anyway, just a tot. At least an alternative view. Not sure if this is correct but good to have.

Ask and It is Given
The only thing that matters is that u consciously discover some relief, no matter how slight it is, and that u understand ur relief has come in response to some deliberate effort that u have offered.
For when u r able to find relief, then u have regained creative control of ur own experience, and then u r on ur way to wherever u desire to go.
And with practice, u will improve ur point of attraction on every subject of ur life.

Process
1. Rampage of appreciation
Once u become oriented toward looking for things to appreciate, u will find ur day will be filled with such things. Ur tots and feelings of appreciation will flow from u naturally.

U actually set ur vibrational frequency to one of allowing what u asked for into ur experience. U r in the practice of receiving.

When u r more interested in how u feel than how others feel about u, u do have control of ur experience.

Soul
Exactly. Now I am not as bothered about Z's plan of ending. I am more focused on how I feel when I am with him. I am no longer passive, waiting for him, wondering how he feel and how he will act.

Ask and It is Given
Once u have made a decision that nothing is more important than that u feel good, and u have decided that u r going to consciously look for some things to appreciate today, the object of ur attention has now become the feeling of appreciation that the Law of Attraction will begin working on immediately, so u will start seeing more things to appreciate right away.


Soul
Nowadays, I don't want to be sad. In order to go beyond sadness, I asked for help for alternative tots and shift. It has helped loads.