Universal love - comes firstly from unconditional love for your partner

Sept 6

Father, my shoulder hurts terribly. I woke up before alarm and tot whether I should sleep back cos don't want to do yoga. Then I recalled my pain lessen when I did yoga. So, I did very slowly. Pain has lessen by half and I could lift it up, albeit with some pain.

Father, thanks for the reminder. For awhile, I have been wondering about my practice and tot if I should cut it down. Alas, my body still needs it and definitely my mind. Today there were tots running on boss and Z but I was able distance myself and switch tots. These days, I am also replacing tots.

Father, thanks for telling me to take ACIM. It really right for me now and I can resonate with it.

My joints pain also help to put things into perspective. My job is not my Top 5 and I need not worry about it. Just enjoy my period. As for boss, just enjoy my lunch alone cos I was getting bit tired of pampering up to her taste. But we will be back together. All in all, I am still glad I said no to her.

(Sept 15 - we were back together the following day. She came and I just wiped clean the past.)

1. The Issue
The lover
Sexuality is not love, but has the potential to grow into love. Sex is the seed, love is the flower and compassion is the fragrance.
When ur love is not just a desire for the other, when ur love is not only a need, when ur love is sharing, when ur love is not that of a beggar but an emperor, when ur love is not asking for something in return - to give for the sheer joy of giving, then add meditation to it, and the pure fragrance of compassion is released.

When we experience the love that exists beyond sexuality and honors the unique individuality of the other. We begin to understand that our partner often functions as a mirror, reflecting unseen aspects of our deeper self and supporting us to become whole.

This love is based on freedom, not expectation or need. Its wings take us higher and higher towards the universal love that experiences all as one.

Soul
I got Nine of Heart in my 39 to 51 period. Z is the door.

2. Internal influence
Postponement
Never postpone for the tomorrow. And who knows? Tomorrow may come or may not come. If u have to decide, u have to decide right now.
The one and only results of postponing things is a dull and depressing feeling of incompletion and 'stuck-ness' today.
The relief and expansiveness u will feel once u put aside all the dithering tots that r preventing u from acting now will make u wonder why u ever waited so long.

Soul
Yea, I will tell him today.

3. External influence
The Master
The whole work of meditation is to make u aware of all that is "mind" and disidentify urself from it. That very separation is the greatest revolution that can happen to man.
Now u can do and act on only that which makes u more joyous, fulfills u, gives u contentment, makes ur life a work of act, a beauty. But that is possible only if the master in u is awake.
There is no blissfulness more precious than freedom, than being a master of ur own destiny.

Soul
I know.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Inner Voice
Inner Voice is able to accept both the dark and the light. There is clarity when one transcend all dualities.
There are times when there are too many voices seems to be pulling us this way and that. Our very confusion in such situations is a reminder to seek silence and centering within. Only then are we able to hear our truth.

5. Resolution
The Dream.
We come alone into this world, we go alone.
All activities is because we r afraid of our aloneness.
Nobody, whether ur current mate, or some dreamed of partner in the future, has any obligation to deliver ur happiness on a platter - nor could they even if they wanted to.

Real love comes not from trying to solve our neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers towards us.

Soul
Amen.