Seven of Spades - trust

Sept 14

Father, everytime I talked to SL, I become appreciative of Z. I have always lamented that it is so suffering that I love a man that doesn't love me. Now I know its worse loving a man that is only using u. Now I know why she is my Environment supporting me in facing my Pluto, Seven of Spades.

1. The Issue
Comparison
Comparison brings inferiority, superiority. When u don't compare, all inferiority, all superiority, disappears. Then u r, u r simply there.
There will always be somebody who is better than u, or apparently happier than u. And conversely, there will always be those who are less than u in all these ways.
The way to find out who u r, is not by comparing urself with others, but by looking to see whether u r fulfilling ur own potential in the best way u know how.

Soul
Reading the cards tells me that I am on the right track with Z.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
The Fool
A fool is one who goes on trusting; a fool is one who goes on trusting against all his experiences.
Go on cleaning ur mind continuously; go on dying to the past so u remain in the present, here now, as if just born, just a babe.
If u trust ur intuition right now, ur feeling of 'rightness' of things, u cannot go wrong. Ur actions may appear 'foolish' to others, or even to urself if u try to analyse them with the rational mind.
But the 'zero' place occupied by the Fool is the numberless number where trust and innocence are the guides, not skepticism and past experience.
Soul
I want to bond with him. It is just time. I want to bond even when he told me it would end. I just want to be here Now and enjoy myself.
And I knew he is my Moon.

3. External influence of which u r aware
Adventure
Truth has nothing to do with the past. Truth is radical, personal realisation. U have to come to it. Insecurity is the only way to grow, to face danger is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow.
When we move into the new and unknown with the trusting spirit of a child, innocent and open and vulnerable, even the smallest things of life can become the greatest adventures.

4. What is needed for resolution
Playfulness
The moment u start seeing life as non-serious, a playfulness, all the burden on ur heart disappears. All the fear of death, of life, of love - everything disappears.
One start living with a very light weight or almost no weight.

When the page of fire enters ur life, u r ready for the fresh and the new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and u have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms.

5. Resolution
Politics