King of Spades - Rebel; Master of my own Destiny

Jul 31

Father, I woke up at 4 am. But don't feel like doing hata. Besides, I now realised none of Isha members are not as gung ho as me. Most of them are not diligent in their practices. So, I gave myself a break. I did my breathing, shakti and shambavi - quite good.

One thing I noticed is that by doing the practices, it take away the heat from the body and I felt refreshed. I guess the heat was the excretion of stress from the body.

I tot of Sl and her rship with her boss. Alas she now admit she is in love with him but there is no chance. And yet, she continue to hold on and savour any little attention she can have.

I tot of me and Z. Yea, I too was like that. But now, I have grown up. I found my joy and his absence won't detract it. I love him and I want to be with him but in a committed relationship. I want us to know each other families. And if he cannot offer that, I can let go.

Father, this morning I was laughing during aum chanting. Then when I was driving, a tree branches caught my eyes and we were laughing together.

I have told my family about my 3 days job and I took a 50% salary cut. They asked what I am going to do the 2 days and why I retire so early. I replied it is a blessing that I can semi-retired early. So, don't have to ask why. Just appreciate it.

Father, all of us looked for happiness. The way is inward. I found mine.

1. The Issue
The Rebel
People are afraid, very much afraid of those who know themselves. The enlightened man cannot be enslaved. He is the greatest stranger in the world; he does not seem to belong to anybody. No organisation confines him, no community, no society, no nation.

The Rebel is clearly the master of his own destiny. On his shoulder is an emblem of the sun and the torch he holds in his right hand symbolises the light of his own hard-won truth.

Whether he is wealthy or poor, the Rebel is really an emperor because he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it.

The Rebel challenges us to be courageous enough to take responsibility for who we are and to live our truth.


Soul
Father, suddenly a tot came. I can do HR and Legal in new company. It deals with people and contracts. Something I like. And it can be 3 days job. J can keep her recruitment. Me, just focus on people handling and communication and paperwork. I don't like to do anything figure related, fast paced or etc.

(Aug 28 - trying to hold on)