Z now facing his drama...

Jul 30
I woke up at 4.05 am. My body was awake. I did my suria, quite effortless and I didn't doze. Then I continue with breathing, shakti and shambavi. Today I had to take quick one as stomach was bit painful due to curry yesterday. But overall is good.

Father, I am back at old company and I will need to ensure our structure work. The FC tot my 3 days was non-working. Well, it is working and I know I can do it. In fact, that's was my original plan. Of course, what was not good was S and Sh is no more.
Yea, I can have regrets but I think it be fine, I can do it again. I will re-build the team.

Father, I finally open up to Z on the children matters. My msg to him:
Just like u thinking I don't want u becos of ur financials. I too tot u don't want me becos of me not able to have children. At times, I also think that I should let u go and find another gal who can give u children. But I m more selfish than u, I want u for myself.

Let's just open u. He already opened up the financials issue and I might as well open up the children issue. I think the children is a bigger one to him, rather than my wealth. Whatever will be will be.

Diamond Heart - book 3
We see that it is not only a matter of what u think is good for u, but who or what u take urself to be.
How do u know what is good for u if u don't know who u r?
If u don't find out who u r, how are u ever going to know if the life u live is the life u really want?
We have all kinds of feelings, emotions, reactions, preferences and prejudices that we take for granted and try to live by. They r based on knowledge we take for granted and try to live by, but which might very well be erroneous.

Fear is dependent on what we think we are. Most of the things people find frightening are scare because of ignorance. People are scared of anger, of sadness, of love, of dependence, of independence, of emptiness and etc. Why? Because they don't know; they don't have the right knowledge of these things.

Some people are scared of aloneness, some are scared of feeling big, some are scared of feeling happy and some are scared of feeling scared. They think these are bad things to feel because what they think they know about them makes them seem dangerous.

The more we gain knowledge of who we are, the more our desires for what we think is good for us will change and reflect reality, become objective.
And the more our belief about what is good corresponds to what we actually are, the better chance there is to be fulfilled, to live in harmony and peace.

Soul
Father, him changing his mind on having children is the same as me changing my mind on financial security.