Staying calm while Z is having his drama

Jul 29 Eve

When I watched the movie, the destruction. Suddenly I tot my drama with Z. Similar to an olden day show whereby the guy is poor and gal is rich. The guy feel insecure and asked the gal to look for another man equal to her financial standing.

Also I tot of me with my non-child issue. His desire is to have children and here I m not keen and most likely cannot have. At times, I tot I should just let him go to find a gal that can bear him children. But after a while, I don't think of it.

So, we are equal now.

After the show I msg him. I told him that I wish he was here with me. He read the msg but didn't reply. That's a good sign.

There is hope for us when he reply this morning. I think his outburst yesterday was before he read my msg about desires vs dreams.

I just let him be. Just give him the quiet support that he needed. Just let him know I am still waiting for him and I want him.

I guess this is a start. All the while it was me and my drama. For the first time, it was his. Luckily I didn't react too much. I think we can pull through this.

I guess this is what they meant by compromise. When one party is feeling insecure and lashes it out, the other one is to stay calm, don't let it trigger their own insecurities and hence won't react negatively and create explosion.
That's how one goes through.

He has hold on his calm throughout all my dramas. Time I do the same for him.