Mind is still playing drama on Z but I can ignore it

Aug 5
Woke up 6.50 am and went for my walk. The trees and grass were so beautiful.

I tot of Z. I wish him well and thank him for releasing me when I cannot.

Aft
Mind keep on searching for ways which I had caused Z to feel inferior resulting in sudden break up.
But I decided not to be hooked. What happens already happens.

Osho - celebration
Whenever a man becomes enlightened, his surrounding is therapeutic. Just being in close contact with him, u will be healed. A master never does anything. But because he is a non-doer, healing happens, because he is a nobody, he gives u space: in that very space u become integrated, u become centered.

Soul
That's what Sadhguru does.

Osho - celebration
Tao
Ur own peace is not there yet. U r still wavering, swaying. Ur center is still not fixed, and these people will make u go more astray; they will be a distraction.

Aug 5 Eve
Father, I am feeling calmer. More accepting of the separation with Z.
I was updating my blog and noted that it is part of my self development, dropping all my external support ; Isha, career and Z.
I recalled I faced so much emotional turmoil and suffering, 2 years ago in starting the rship with Z, but I proceeded cos I knew it is part of my self growth.
Now the separation is also part of my self growth. Alas I accepted it.

Also, 7 years period says that to get the most of this period, allow the changes to flow in ur life without trying to know exactly what lies ahead.
When u r in transition, u must change and depart from what has been and the future is not always clear. But there are always clear skies ahead just beyond what we can see.

Soul
My card today is Six of Spades - settlement. Tot of me over-reacting by deleting Z's bb contact. But I know its good. At least for next 2 weeks I won't be contacting him. I will accept the ending. Who knows, he may get rich and contact me again.


(Aug 24 - yea, he finally got a buyer for the apartment, paid up all his card's debt and even saved money in his bank. He finally able to contact me when he is ready)